It's time for a new beginning (:

hahaha :)

today sucked
as in seriously
the day sucked
the evening sucked

but dinner was great
angel really has this amazing charisma that makes ppl feel good :)
i love you anlynn and angellll :DDDDDD

okay
even thou e day sucked
but i still gotta be polite
okay ill just list the first 5


1) and 2) are retarded, cos both are at 11.59 pm AHAHAH
but apparently its my phones fault
so hhaaa

1) EVE :D expected, cos she really is my bestbest friend (:
2) BEN HAHA. dont call me mum. i bet eve feels accomplished at this.
3) audrey :OOO love ya!
4) jolyn!!! hahah sing me a bday song
5) jackson !! haha sorry ur not first like u wish.. but still gd enuff :)

OOO but one more impt person.. actually to e special ppl that made me happy today :)

lawrence.!!!!!haha expected, cos ur an aweeeesomeee friend, lol this sucker READ A BOOK to stay up haha, AMAZING??
oh and matt.... u made my day :)
and angel!!! u gave me an amaazin end
and anlynn.. for waiting for me for so long and spendin the entire afternoon n evenin with me :)
and huiqi, gosh, cos well ur just huiqi and i still love u u asshole!! :)
and joey.. for bein such a good girl n not stayin up.. haha!
OOO N TIM!! LOL this dumbo gay actually rmbed!!
oh and sumei... becos ur e only one that blessed me to find my vision, n thats wat i really want now, i love u my dear, soso much :)

e rest, thanks too :)

yay!!
jessie owes me a card!
sumei too
omg
i love cards, not presents (theyre good), but cards are AWESOMEE
nice long cards
come on guys!
make me cry sob tears of joy!!
hahahahha :D

HHAHAHA.

my sister is soooo funny.
she was jumping around cos she was too cold back in melbourne, and she slipped
and she sprained her ankle LOL.

oh well :)
that made me laugh like HAHAHAHA

oh gosh.
im doing chinese now
yawnyawnyawn

SHERMAN SHEPERD I AM SO MUCH CHIO-ER THAN YOU :P

it's not necessary

zz
im just so dam bombarded these few days and i just think that
there is not worth in the bonus that we get if the stand was not already there

what the hell...
LIFE SUCKS when God ain't here
life sucks

My shelter and refuge and song... I trust in You.

HEYLLO!!

hahaha today was surprisingly good :)
got back two papers
both disappointing zzzzzz
i got 6/20 for summary...
darn otherwise i could have beat that nerice!!
haha

geog was.. OKAY.
not top, not happy :P
haha but compared to history, geog i think i will be happy with

ermmm
yeah well my temperature was nuts today seriously
it kept on drifting up and down all day long and made me so hot cold and sweaty aha

OOO
CONGRATS TO JOLYNNN!!
2nd generation of w445 connect grp leaders!!
HAHAH but she is dam sick
i said i was her mum cos she was my younger generation
then she replies' do you know what that means, you are my mom and ajay and isaac are my dads HAHA'
EWWWW darling

haha anyway
IM SO PROUD OF YOUU
was just looking back at my dedications to you in like jan and dec
you were so shakey then, but through this short time of half a year
you have grown so amazingly much
you're truly becoming the light of your school dear (:
study hard for your common, and i am sure that no oppositions that come ur way can ever defeat you
your parents, your classmates, nothing!!!
ur faithfulness will make all go well dear, i am so happy proud proud prouddddddd of u!! :)
i love you darling!!

eh, EVELINA, hw abt you too? HAHA

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:((((

today was a useless pointless day.
which proves that a life without God is useless and pointless.
gahhh this is a bad week
the weekend was fun.
but it was bad
just so bad.
n discouragin

lol i shall go mad for a few more hours then stand up again!!
wooo God ur my strength :)

cant wait for fop
cant wait to feel God

but at the same time
im gg all mad
and laughin at the weirdest things
haha trish's msn name can make me roll all over e floor.
poor poor trishy ahhaahahaha.

siao

i am too lazy to blog

but
must be fair
so

for ytd

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DARREN AND LAWRENCEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!

muahaha i am the most awesome friend ever i was first to wish them both happy birthday
AHA!!!

yes service was good.
discipline discipline discipline!!

and after svc had pm
AWESOME
its not like pastor mings type, thats more of pm for individual
but pastor yk's are like pm for corporate things
prayed and prayed and prayed
powerful!!

then
mrt to tanah merah cos expo cab dam long
got a cab
and travelled past expo again on e way to pasir ris
dumb
hahaha
but we were like 15 min late for e movie
sorry law and sherman!
hahaha

watched PROM NIGHT
er... horrible? hahaha

sherman is completely emotionless to my left
and he just spent the whole movie insulting my low courage
lawrence on my right just sniggered and sniggered, BUT AT LEAST HE WAS SCARED!
haha

anlynn was like more moaning abt how e hot guy died rather than being scared -.- AHAH
after that bought waffle and went to macs :)
haha sherman look like puppy!! seriously haha

took neo's
LOL
funniest part
LAUGHED SO MUCHHH HAHAHAH!!!

went home at around 8

lov you anlynn rita sherman n lawrence!!! :)
and happy bday again bday boy, hope u had fun too (:

bye!!

today was like

happy
n sad
n happy n sad

my sis left
well
i kind of will miss her
by sis :( :(

had lunch with mum n sis at cha cha chas and cold rock haha!!
and then dinner at ajisen sushi n then nycheesecake from rittazzaaa ( sumthing like that)
GROW FATS!!!!!!

ahahaha
oh well :)

i am very happy today!!
jessie came for cg and xy's coming tmr
i was like literally crying during worship becos i was just so so so so so soooooooooooooo happy that they came :D

God is so good all the timeeee :)

well tmr!
theres a wholeee lott of frens coming!
so w445 must really work to keep e frens !!!!!


bwahahaha.
i dont feel like blogging for awhile
but once i say this
i will feel like blogging alr
so there
o mama mia
haha

bye!

HAHA!

slept at 1...
throat dry
talked on e phone for 5 hours last night
ahahaa!!
jessie tan is a BUM :)
who as robotic emotions. tsk.

i was going to skip school today
but... i am too guai
i felt too guilty in e morning so off i went to school :)
haha

school was very relaxed today lol
had lotsa fun laughin at trish
did this did that blablablaaa

after school had cip :) yay!
so fun.. takin care of e mentally disabled people
they r so cute and nice
after that parents came for ptm HAHA

jianings mum and my mum were complainin abt me n jianing
tsk tsk
haha

tuition later.
hooray. (hahaha)

stop it. stop it.

HIII.

TODAY WAS GOOD.

first was la.
WATCHED ROMEO AND JULIET

HAHAHA TRISH IS A PERVERT (:

she only looks up when the atmosphere gets... hot and heavy.. otherwise shes just writing away.
HAHA. ooh and i found out lotsa stuff abt ur luv today trish (: haha might not be so.. lovey anymore!!

BIO. GOT BACK BLOCK TEST (:
WOOO. well i could've gotten higher due to like 3 or 4 marks of careless mistakes... but it's like a 85% when converted so im satisfied? haha!
yeah well, when u serve God, even thou u study like so ... not much, He still makes everythin go smooth (:

math was... yawny
everyone was yawning
the last two rows centre portion were all banged down with heads on the tables n snoring away
poor poor miss lee.. haha
the front half was teasin her abt her BOYFRIEND
HAHAHA.
funny funny

art was FUN (:
we went to e courtyard to glaze our clays
so mrs tan just left us there so some of us (most) just stayed in e basketball court and chatted
there r cocoons hangin on e dustbin =o
joling touched one and we screamed our heads off haha

dismissed!
went to btp with audrey rosanne and sumei to get jessies cake
HAHAH havin such a difficult time hidin... sumei was ultimately paranoid :p
haha. preordered e cake.. lol it had one slice missin so we had to add another slice frm another cake -.-

ate lunch at e korean restaurant! yum yum :)
matt n ruiyuan came
baha then they collected the cake n went for trainin n rosanne went home n me ry n matt went over to kap
lol bs was meant to be at 4 but william skipped LIT (BADDD) and came down early hahaha

bs was fun
talked to matt while ry gave william
thenafter that william treated us to ice cream (GAH WILLIAM U ROCK) :P
had a fun fun talk
then went home (:

haha!! havent seen william in soooo long
come more la dude!
:p

BYE!!!

HAHAHA.

well this was a long time ago.
WELL, i promised, so this is for YOU SUMEI! (:
haha. (and jessie, you'll get yours soon haha be patient be patient) :P

ANYWAY. HI SUMEI (:
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!! haha.
well, what should i say to you (:

hmm well, for starters, let me tell you how proud i am of you. you know those first 10 weeks of term 1, how i invested like half my time in you, i can honestly tell you that i never ever regretted one moment of it.

You were a lazy bum, you slept in class, you had EWWWEW thoughts, your results werent so good (HAHAH SORRY IM JUST REMINDIN U ABOUT UR PAST SO U CAN SEE E BEFORE AND AFTER :P), you said bad words... BUTBUTBUT. i want to tell you now that God told me that somehow you had the strength and faith inside of you to get over it. Haha i never told you that till now, cos i knew you would become a lazy complacent bum if i told you :P

but yes, i'm happy for you girl. i really enjoy every moment i have with you (MOST), you are really cute (HAHA ill be nice), you make really funny jokes and i really like your character. i really love you as my disciple because you are always here and ready to obey, you are always fighting against any stress, and you really really learnt the lesson and set God first in your life :)

haha you dont know it but you're a really big encouragement for me too, you really make me feel loved. like when you keep telling me how much you miss me and how much you cant live without me (HAHA), it really makes me feel so good that you know, theres someone that really puts me there as an important part of their life.

heh this is SOOO weird because ive never actually written a dedication to you before but just wanna say thanks alot sumei (: you're the effort that i'll never regret putting in, because .. well its a feeling hard to explain. thats why i keep telling you to never give up, to never give up on those that seem hardest to work on, because thats the way i feel when i look and see the change in you. Its just so happy, so touching that sometimes i can really feel like crying when i see how well you are doing.

again and again disappointments will come sumei, but i really think now you know that God will never ever forsake you. this is my blessing to you my beloved girl, because even sometimes when you go in with the fullest faith something seems to go wrong, but remember, God is always looking for ways to bless you. He's not just sitting there and waiting till you ask then He will bless okay!!! He, GOD, is like literally foreseeing your ever move and showering little boxes of blessings down from heaven (cooler than santa claus hor :P)

haha well. this will end here. because if i write any longer your card will be completely blank haha. this dedication is so focused on God, because let me tell you sumei, you dont ever have to regret dedicating your whole life to God. i am going to be here for you as long as i can, but one day we'll naturally be set apart, and God will really be the one you truly truly depend on.

so, one new year, one year older :P one level higher of faith! one level higher of love! one level higher of evangelism! one level higher of prayer! one level higher of fasting! one level higher of e Holy Spirit, one level higher, together with Jesus :)

heee heee come on lets soar with wings like eagles together sumei, obviously with God by our sides (: happy birthday my dear girl!!!!

happy bday my jessie poopoopoo =)

haha this will be as simple as e sms!
just wait for e card
i love you my dear!!! =D

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:(

:(

Math today was.. HORRIFYING! HORRENDOUS!!
the paper wasnt very hard.... that was thank God to tuition
but i didnt have time to finish :o
that was totally my fault.

booohooohoo

this is a confirmed... fail!!
as in literal confirmation haha.
oh well.

I LOVE HILLSONGS NEW ALBUM - THIS IS OUR GOD!
the worship songs inside it are AMAZING.
especially 'desert song'! :D

omgosh love it it really got me through today..

All of my life in every season
You are still God,
I have a reason to sing,
I have a reason to worship

heh heh... so all of my life ( doesnt matter if i fail or pass math -.-)
You are still my God!!! and just becos of that i will always have a reason to sing and worship n praise u (:

hee oh n the lyrics r hard to find.. so those hu r lookin for it its at newsrelease (:
AMAZING SONG.
i love it i love it!
the story behind it is so touching too...
two lead singers, brooke and the other girl (i haven figured out her name yet)
her miscarriaged baby died 1 and a half weeks before e recordin of e song
and yet she could still tell God that He totally was e victory..
SUCH FAITH!!!
amazing :)

i think i shall go preorder this is our God from attributes alr haha :D

WOOO my fave album yet (:

well totally spies has started!
HAHA dun mind me block tests just finished i need to de-mature and forget everythin i memorised (:

bye!

hurr hurr hurr...

it's 9.19 pm and i have done a maximum of 20 minutes of math so far today LOL
which means my math revision has come up to a total of 20 minutes for this block test :X

ouch ouch ouch
i really need to pray tonite
undeserved grace is not what i should be asking for -.-

haha but anyway
i got 8/10 for my math quizzy today :)
hee the 2nd time i got above passing mark!!!
also e 2nd quiz since i joined tuition (the scrapped one din count, that was mr fang's evil mission :p)
MUAHAHA THANKS ISAAC :)
i will bring ur pencil on sat!!
maybe he uses it to do his math paper... can i use it for my math paper tmr??
pass some of ur math addiction to me haha!

oh well
i do not know what to feel abt tmr's test
i am totally unprepared
i feel it, but im still smiling away :D

gotta be happy!
face things with ur teeth shinin!
wooo!!

BYE!!! :D

OH.

NO.

MY.

DOG.

I.

FELL.

ASLEEP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

well i was abit tired and i had a headache so i decided to lie down.
for awhile. heh. awhile never stays as awhile.
darn darn darn darn darn
it's now nearly 7pm and I HAVENT STARTED STUDYING YET.
oh my oh my oh my

im so stressed two pimples just popped out on the either side of my nose, SYMMETRICALLY.
its as if the germs inside each pimple are like using my nose as a bridge to meet or something.
wth. WAHAHA. but jianing thinks its darn cool. RIGHT? (:

hee jianing is trying to rip me off now.
she is a cheaater of my one dollar and of my feelings.
AND I AM HURT. u hear that jianing??? :( :(

HAHA. okay i am a bit OOZY right now.
i dont feel right.
I SHALL START MUGGING.
in 10 minutes. :P

BOOO.

IM HOME.
YAYYY ONLY ONE PAPER LEFT.
AM I HAPPY OR WAT?
okay that shouldnt be a question
IM HAPPPYYYY!!! WOO!!!

wootssss..
haha but its math tmr...
freak me out freak me out!!
i think all e time in ny i only got one paper above 40 lol
wait... i got exactly 40...
okay so that means i havent even gotten a solid a2 for math paper before lol

ahh well (:
life still goes on!!!

aiya sumei wants me to post abt her lei!
ill just write u a card instead k poop? :P

YEAHH.
so its JESSIE'S birthday tomorrow!!!
and then darren & lawrence on sunday!
WOOTS
birthday season = broke broke broke
but technically i was broke before it came... darn...

after school went to btp with sumei hahahaha
no one wld go wif her so i had to take special pity on my beloved member :(
awwww!
haha kidding la.
she ate her korean food and then we went to attitude to eat e cake (:
then she treated me to a yakult LOL!
on her birthday somemore... talk about reverse ah...
nvm.. MY ALLOWANCE FLOWS IN AGAIN NEXT WEEK.
YAY!!!

woots!
a sudden rush of love for everything around me again (well maybe except math....:( )
oh boooo!!




I LOVE YOU w445!!!! :)

heh thx eve

HEEE!!

its 10.15 now n after a 2 hour paper of chinese
I FEEL GREAT
i was so so so nervous
i only had like 20 min for e entire last section
BUT GOD TOOK OVERRRRR!!!!

it was really Him writin for me
Holy Spirit guidin me all e way
AHHH
AMAZINN :DDDDDD

WELL.
ANYWAY.
most impt thing of e day
HAPPY BIRTHDAY SUMEI!!!!!!! :D
heee bought a miniature blueberry muffin with a candle for her n we sang her bday song
YAY SHE LOVES ME RITE!!! :) :)
i love u my dear, GOD WILL PROTECTTT U!!!
haha im watchin u sittin on e window sill now
and i believe God's gonna bless u a many many hundred thousand times!

TWO MORE PAPERS TO GO!!!!
but a billion more times for God to bless me wif miracles :)
i love experiencin u God!!!!!!!!
ITS AMAZINGGGGG.

'I believe, You're my portion. '

God is good...
all the time!
through the darkest night His light will shine!!
God is good.. God is good.. all the time!!!!!!

Though i may not understand the plans You have for me
but through these eyes of faith.... i can clearly seee,

GOD IS GOOOD!!!! HE'S SO GOOD!!!! ALL THE TIMEE!

short post.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY XY!!! :D

and...

HAPPY BAPTISM EVEEE FAITH N RITA(RDDD)

haha its e best feelin see e person u bring to church gettin baptised
seriously
its just the best feelin.

really an encouragement fer me today
as for now.
i need to mug on.
blog on wed :)

bye!

YAY.

today was AMAZING.
i slept like 3 hours.
but i wasnt tired. AT ALL. HAHAHA.
i was so high actually.

AMAZING GODDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD!
i paid attention to all e classes!
after school met ruiyuan at city hall
walao that guy make girl wait.. HAHAHA

yeah we mrt-ed to simei
n went to changi general hospital to visit sochanta (:
hahaha they FREAKED ME OUT
i was so scared i was gonna cry alr hahaha
then i started gettin tired round 5+
smile too much until mouth cramp
yayyy :D

TMR.
MUGMUGMUG.
yeah
ive been puttin alotta time into servin God
haha
but
im not gonna be like normal ppl of this world searchin for a gold with honors in their degree or studies...
im searchin for a gold with honors one way ticket into e kingdom of God
wahahaha. n sheesh, mines just so much more worth anything, AHAHA.

gosh i need to sleep
mum fetched me home
n she spent e entire night fixin e internet while gettin her blood pressure shot up
gosh i love u mum
u r so so awesome (:

GAH.

leon has been gone for one week as of today...
booo :(

haha.
oh well.
school today was blehh :p
i was so so so so tired zomg but i didnt fall asleep
power of God!

haha dismissed at 12
watch volleyball match
aww :(

anw
tmr is e LAST DAY OF SCH of e week!!
beat that, ahhahaha!

kiddin kiddin
alr
cya :P

HAHAHAHA.
OMG
I CANT TYPE ENOUGHT HAHAHA TO EXPRESS HOW MUCH I WANNA HAHAHAHAH

eve just called n we were reminiscing abt out pri sch times.
AND WE GOT TO E JQ ML THING.
N WE KEPT ALL THE 'HISTORICAL DOCUMENTS'
the pledge, the badge, the motto, vision, mission.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
i laughed so hard my mom thought i was MADDDDDD.

primary school times were gd (:

HAHAHAHAHAHAHHA/

MUAHAHA.

TODAY WAS :DDDD
everyday has been quite :DDDDDDDDDDDDDD

well woke up like groggy today
dad cabbed me to school before going off to the airport.
gosh i'll miss you dad :(
and jie's leaving next sat!
lonely house once again.

school was fun..... okay.
geog n chinese.
chinese had to mark xinyi's paper.
HAHA demoralising i tell you, her words are so cheem and you know, even though she got 4/20 for her summary she got.. 32 marks higher than me LOL.
but technically, i left the last two pages blank... so ummm? :)

before lunch was dance!
which was... painful noisy spastic funny and weird as usual
chenlaoshi taught us new.. moves today and it wreaked quite a havoc? hahaha
esther and i kept on kicking n bangin into each other. bruises everywhere.

after lunch was PHYSICS :D
the quiz was okay. but the studying last night wasn't THAT worth it i guess.
10 marks question of which 7 is mcq.

cct was briefing with whole school about CROSS COUNTRYYY
YAYYY :D
hahahaha the most painful but fun time of the year
and its at macritchie this year because apparently we got kicked outta turf club... which also means the run will be 0.5km longer but ahhh heck(:

cca was looking at the hk trip photos (CHLOE IS JEALOUS :O)
and after that bus-ed back with sam nat and ny(ooh haha)
sam is desperately flirtatious and nat is a lezbian with a puffball head.
what friends do i have, seriously! haha.

sam and i got really demoralized at the end cos we found out ny got 278 for her psle...
darn.... and she got abt 2 a2's with the rest all a1... double darn....
haha well i got off e bus before them so i left sammy to continue letting herself get demoralized with ny(:

yay i guess i've really been leaning on the strength of God lately
and i really feel as i walk on the streets, or when i'm alone, i just can smile and smile and think about how amazingly amazing God is!
haha.... spot me on the streets next time... i'll be smiling like a mad dog :D

alright.
VOLLEYBALL FINALS TOMORROW.
good luck sara! haha. bye(:

EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

LEON HAS FINALLY... well not settled down i presume
but hes finally at his new hometown :(

BOOOOO.
LEON U BELONG IN BUKIT TIMAH
not... whatever ur neighbourhood is called!

hahahaha
I MISS U LEON TAN!!!!!
WE ALL DO!!!

hi =D

school today was HAPPY :D
even thou there was so much work to do
i felt so HAPPY :D

feelings like that always naturally come after a revelational n amazin weekend with God (:

last night did sia till like 10.30...
then did physics until 12... but actually i think my sis did e whole thing for me haha
i asked her how to do one ques
and i think i fell asleep on her pillow (EW BRANDON:P)

had to walk all e way back to bpp at 8 cos some bum called isaac ong was already on e way home -.- haha jkjk :p :p
bettie called on my walk there.. wee i love her!
bettie is so cute seriously :P

talked a bit
bought macs for dinner cos e indian store was closed -.-
ahah bettie kept on scoldin me abt eating macs zz :P

well today was alright
woke up at 7
very tired, but felt good

thought first period was free so was rejoicing ...
until i realised wanglaoshi took over e one hour to do chinese compo paper 1...
which is like 1 compo one letter... which is like two hours.. which is like... just so tiring..
haha
but u noe wat
i wasnt drained.. last friday we did paper n i felt so dead alr... but somehow today i finished everythin real quick... ahhh grace of God

rest of the day was blah :p
physics proposal chionged durin lunch
after school chiong ict
during math chiong math paper
during cme chiong chinese corrections

woots fun fun fun day!!

business feels great when God is by ur side :)
haha well cya!

PS. BEN TAY IS SUCHHHH A CHEAT AT REMEMBERING BIRTHDAYS :P

life is so sad sometimes...

my whole family is finally together in singapore
and they were going to celebrate my birthday today
but guess what! i cant go.... because of the two stupid projects and a tonne worksheets due tomorrow...

i really dont care how many people celebrate my bday with me, but i really wish my entire family could just be here.
my sis will be gone 4 days before my birthday, my dad will be coming back the midnight of my birthday, and not the morning, the night :(
so basically im a sad sad girl...

but ive got my mommy
i love my mum.. she is always with me, even when everyone else cannot be here, she will make sure nothing comes into the way! haha

BUT
heh
i know that i myself chose to go for svc today!
n i can say.. I DIN REGRET IT
lol not that i ever would
todays service n fellowship was just really.. happy-ish!!! =D

met with chloe qi n yixuan in e mornin.. at 6.50
(SOME PPL COULDN WAKE UP) hhaha
went down to expo and reached by 8 (:

sat down and ate.. outside e queue
ruiyuan came and screamed his head off cos the queue was growin longer by e second.. and we were still eating..
haha.
door finally opened (: ruiyuans friend sochanta came
haha hes very nice.. hi sochanta!:P

thenthen um booked seats
isaac and gerald (TSK) finally came ...
haha.

service was great
i sat between nicole and jasmine and they are just so lively and fun!!
haha its their second svc and they were like jumpin along with me (:
brittany too i think!
haha eve's cousins are so so cool.. and eve too of course (:

service was all about self esteem, self worth, self respect and self.. image? issit
haha.
it was really good.. seriously.
pastor kong was so funny
'go pasa malam... get your PRATA bag ah.. hahaha'
don't be a person with no class!!
so cool man. PASTOR IS SOOOO COOL!
yes totally.

and after service...
e Hallelujah song was amazing
omgosh the presence of God was just so strong
it's like an entire thousands of people just singing and praising Hallelujah Hallelujah... ahhh beautiful (:

and yes!
so today onwards
we don wanna be rickety old helicopters that fly up and down and look like we r gonna fall apart
but instead we r gonna be like SQ A380 ... soaring with wings like eagles... right next to e King of all the Kings (:

i am of royal blood! because i am a princess! because God is my king!
MUAHAH.. this is God teachin eve not to be so stingy... now we gotta share havin royal blood hahaha

GOD. IS. SO. AMAZING.
BEAT. THAT.
no you ever cant. hahaha.

stresses of the week coming up!
but God, i feel all the heavenly satisfactories when i think of You! =D

after svc went for lunch.
HAHAHA lunch was spastic lol.
sorry isaac i just had to pop the comment about ur nan hua thing to take e focus of ry.. HAHA

well... i am now lookin at isaac with TOTALLY DIFF EYES
im horrified! hahaha

after lunch krys drove me faith n isaac back
faith dropped off n then me and isaac went bpp together
ahah i needed to get portfolio stuff

wa isaac.. u disappoint me eh.. haha. :P
just kiddin just kiddin!!

okay.. A WEEK OF SCHOOL AHEAD!
which also means a week of countin totally on God..
which is just like.. AWESOME!

ps.. omgosh nearly forgot
HOPE U LIKED E SWEETIES DANIEL !!! (:
u r such a cute polar bear n a even better friend.. althou u shd prob stop konkin my head seriously!! haha

WEEEHEEEE

just came back from cell.
I FEEL AWESOME.
ahha sorry about the post just now
i just wanted myself to look and see how God could change my mood from total crap to HAPPINESS in a mere few hours (:

haha well it might seem that my sadness just now was fake
but seriously, i felt so so so screwed up
i really felt like everything i was doing was useless, that no matter how much i prayed and fasted for them it was totally unappreciated.
but then i realised.... or more of krystle really snapped into me, that there were many things the other members had been doing that i wasnt doing
and even though by capacity, i knew that i was doing quite alot, but i suddenly knew that yet i had not done enough

BUT. then the devil had spoken to me... and asked me why i had to stretch myself so much
i mean, whats the use ?
why did i have to sacrifice so much of my time into the cell group...
THEN God totally intercessed with today's message...
'Be a finisher'... and yeah, i guess that really pushed me on
i could choose to look back and think ' oh yeah those times were great but now i'm tired'
but i can say with all my heart that i want to finish those works that i have started
i want to conquer my members even though lol, that seems so far
i want to win more friends into my connect group and w445 because i truly truly love the people around me so much.

so many people around me have gifts ...
gifts that i could never have i guess
dancing, tennis, amazing anointed guitar playing, sports, studies....
and i used to feel so demoralized... hello im in green club man
but i just realised... hey! why do you laugh at me? look at yourself man
you may be exceling in all parts of your life... but what have you done for others, what have you done for God?
have you made a person touched these past few days, have you called a person and made them feel loved?
have you used your gifts to really touch others in a special way?

i don't have many gifts i admit... but i know that e love i have for people, i know that e willingness to sacrifice for them and most importantly... my love with God can really bring me up in life.

i am not the prettiest, smartest, coolest, most popular, skinniest, best complexion(AHAH), i dont have the best singing voice, and i know that i really am not very good at much things... but yet im really satisfied with myself because i know that i really live everyday for God, and it's always always always worth it :)

haha, thats why i love days when i start out screwed
because a huge whole revelation comes in by the end of it
and a new motivation to keep pressing on...

and also because at the start of my day when everything is falling apart
i told God that i would expect my mood to change by the end of the day..
and God has never once left me hanging there.

WHOOSH!
if this morning had been 6 months ago
i would have fallen apart
but i guess i really have grown to love God more during this time
and i wish to love Him more and more and more every single day =)

last night was a bad night.
probably my fault actually.

i dont need this right now.
you irritating devil just get away from me la.
you're already my footstool you here?
im stomping on your head right now.
maybe i should fatten myself up so your head will be squashed even more.

i don't know what to say.
God .... please take over me again.

tuition was extended half an hour! HAHA
but it felt... enriching :P

i slept all the way from e time i got home till e time i left for tuition.
and i still feel so tired.
i think his is getting more psychological, or else im just becoming a pig.

you know what.
im getting so empty.
not with God.
but with fellowship
im just getting so empty.
then again
probably psychological.

muahaha.
but i love God
i love Him so so so much
i'm so confused but yet when i look at e cross
i cry and cry because i know that God still loves me no matter who i am and what i've done
i cry because i know that even when my faith is down God is still faithful to me and blessing me
i cry because i know that even though people leave my life all the time... God will never leave me.

so i pray that this blessing can go out to leon
i pray that he will feel God following him even when he is so lonely over there
i pray that he will cry because he feels the presence of God when everything else feels so cold

God.... im crying as i type this, and i just want to tell You how much You mean to me
how much i know i've done wrong and how much more i wish to please You
God... its a declaration You've made that You will never leave me .. even if everyone else will
God... its a declaration You've made that even when my relationship with other people will feel hollow.. You will still be here to fill this empty vessel in my heart up with Your love

God... i thank You for planning my life like this... even though sometimes it's just so painful... but yet i know i can bear it... because You have beared it for me..

i'm so glad i stayed in church even when things seemed bleak.
because i know that God will never fail me(:

IM IN SCHOOL NOWW :D

hahahaha!
yeah well school ends at 12.15 today
MAUHAHA so happy man
I GOTTA SLEEP
hahah i was gonna mug last night
but i fell asleep at 11 D:
gosh and i feel more tired than i do when i sleep at 2
haha

anyway
EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
LEON WROTE ON MY WALL IN FACEBOOOK!!! okay it was like 5 words lol
seriously im gonna go faithful with facebook frm now onwards!!! but he might not get his com after he leaves his hotel i guesss :(
OMGOSH HES IN AUCKLAND NOW!!
haha do i sound like some crazy fanatic fangirl?? :p
ahahaha oh well.

2 more days to obsess abt him
so i shall just go ahead
LOL but he'll prob get e creeps when he sees this HAHAH

aiyo im so exhausted
last night was great (:
i talked to bettie for like 2 and a half hours!
muahaha learnt alot alot
n i really feel so sad for her
but LEON IS SO SWEET
seriously i cant say how
But omg he is seriously e sweetest guy on earth HAHAHA
lucky ducky bettie :P

n halfway she went to ans another call..
she was like ' hello.. hello???'
then.. 'err isaac i'm not daniel..'
LOL . yup but AIII
i need to mug tonite
so bad

okay
gtg now
SEEYAYAYA.
N TMR IS SAT

WHICH MEANS
CEL GROUPPP
WOOOOOOOOOOOO
it feels so long since the last one ... hahaha

okey cya!

HELLO.

school today was borringgg
oh but the two china boys exchange students came :D
hahahaha!

life is getting so.. boring :P
sheesh
as much as i miss leon
i would kill to be the one thats there right now

melbourne would be preferred
but e city leon is stayin in is quite nice too
HAHAH especially the clouds there
nice cute n fluffy :P

haha n apparently his school is rockin e cricket world in nz down so.... bye judo hi cricket? haha no la
gosh it seems like a nice place... and e school has quite a lot of international students so i hope leon will be happy too (:
HAHA but e guys there look tall.. n muscular so thank God leon is darn tall for his age.
startin school in 11 days babyface... dont get bullied by e big guys there
(SERIOUSLY SOME OF EM LOOK .. TOWERING AHAHA)

okay
ive allowed myself until sunday to obsess abt leon then its time to let go!
i thank God for really moulding my character so much
i really feel new and changed in Him :)
as for today, i really need to lean on God, so much so much

but my dad came back from his china-korea trip this morning and i have yet to talk to him
(but after scannin e luggage it doesnt look like he got me anythin... -.- )
haha but anw welcome back dadddd!! :D
gtg now (:

samsung is lousy...
i haveta charge my phone like once every 5 hours lol

BYEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
i shall go emo a lil while more n then eat a bagel n then study-udy-udy away!

goodbye baby-face ... and im gonna smile now, because its time to send my blessings .... so.... (:

well...

today.
leon left.
he left.
i dont believe it lol.

woke up today still not quite ready that he's leaving
then it sunk into me
and i felt like crying so bad
but it just couldnt come out
so it just suffocated and suffocated me.

pe was height and weight!
haha i was quite satisfied :P
considering the amazingly large amounts ive been eating
played soft ball.

physics was so tired i felt like falling asleep so much.
then la was talking.
then chloe called.
and she said.
'OI LEONS FLIGHT IS LEAVIN AT 2.15 NOT 3.40 WE CANNOT MEET HER LE'
i was totally ....
called leon....
he said it was true
haha let out half e gallon of tears inside of me
sheesh embarrassin

i was really so confused...
then emotions went from pain to sunday's service ' stick e knife in your heart'
china style

but...
i guess God really never lets down His children...
i know i prayed so much last night that today would go smoothly and that we would be able to catch leon's flight because the actual timing was so closely packed.

and when i came out of assembly.
bettie sms-ed.
'FLIGHT POSTPONED TO 4.15'
I WAS LIKE OMG.

Haha God.... you truly are so amazing so amazing SO AMAZING.

cabbed down...
went to viewing mall...
prayed for leon....
he was crying...... ahhhhhhhhhhh

lol it was a really emo time e rest of e time...
i just can't believe it lol.

watching his back go through the immi, then as he turned back to look one last time before he walked away... with all our faces pressed against the glass windows just trying to catch a glimpse of him.

oh leon..
as of 7.37 pm right now.
ive officially known you for 354 days and 9 hours and 7 minutes haha....
you just couldnt wait till ive known you for a year to leave could you?
the leon that has been guiding me through when krystle could not be around
the leon that called me up and made me feel cared and concerned about when i was down
the leon that took so much care of my connect group not because i asked him but because he truly loved his people so much.
the leon that ive been so dependent on these few weeks....
what am i going to do now?
i dont want to not see him at cell group...

dont want...

why did the first person i ever lose in my life have to be from w445.
leon... come back soon
please come back soon
please dont wait two years.

aiii..... bye leon.... i love you and i miss you like crazy crazy!!
but now... for the LEON SONG.


I remember the times we spent together
All those drives, we had a million questions
All about our lives
And when we got to New York everything felt right
I wish you were here with me,
Tonight

I remember the days we spent together,
were not enough, it used to feel like dreaming
Except we always woke up,
Never thought not having you here now
Would hurt so much

Tonight I've fallen and I can't get up
I need your loving hands to come and pick me up
And every night I miss you
I can just look up
And know the stars are
Holding you, holding you, holding you
Tonight

I remember the time you told me
About when you were eight
And all those things you said that night
That just couldn't wait

I remember the car you were last seen in
And the games we would play
All the times we spilled our coffees
And stayed out way too late

I remember the time you sat and told me
About your Jesus, and how not to look back
Even if no one believes us
When it hurts so bad, sometimes
Not having you here

Tonight I've fallen and I can't get up
I need your loving hands to come and pick me up
And every night I miss you
I can just look up
And know the stars are
Holding you, holding you, holding you

Tonight .

Tonight - FM Static

Cheryl, jolyn me eve, leon, jackson, ruiyuan

LEON N RUIYUAN HAHA

LOL WE WANTED TO KEEP SOME PART OF LEON AS MEMORY! N THATS LEONS HAIR THAT RUIYUAN IS EXAMININ! n i am e best hair plucker on earth seriously (: hahaha im sorry leon if i caused u any pain :P (LOL)
ah.... the classic.... LEON baby-face(:

i love you ruiyuan jackson jolyn and leon!!!!! ooh and cheryl too! hahahah!

-photos by JOLYN :D (and a mixture of phones haha)

HAHAHA omg eve im so sorry thats like one of e few photos i have of you :P
but i think u loor really pretty there anw so hahah1!
that was taken at like cny celebration last year hahahaha so oops :P

ANYWAY.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY EVE!!!!!

woots ive known u for 5 years n still countin
n think despite ur SLY tricks to keep me talkin on e phone, u r one of e best friends ive ever had!!
i love talkin to u becos its just so fun and INTERESTIN ahahahaha
and u bein a part of my connect grp is just one of e GREATEST blessings God has given me :)
despite ur PRINCESS-NESS, (which i only found out this year omg haha), i still loveeee you so so so much n i hope we'll huo dao lao together HAHAH
i mean not with EACH OTHER... but neighbours maybe? haha
anw God bless u eve, im always here for u, im prayin for u every single day of e week, n ur really one of e most amazin girls ive ever met :)

ANW.
YES
thats the happy part of today!!!!!
unfortunately such a happy day clashed with such a SAD HEARTBREAKING DAY.

was plannin to wake up at 4... i did i think .. but i went back to sleep
brandon gave me a wake up call at 5 (MAD?!)
hahahaha but i still was too lazy to get up so i rested in bed muahaha! :P

aiya dun wanna talk abt e rest alr.....
IM GONNA CRY. SOB. ANYTHIN.
LEON'S LAST DAY HERE
wth lol i was havin such a dilemma abt my good girl image but in e end i still skipped cca to spend it wif leon...
HAI. LEON TAN.
i cant believe ur leavin :(
i really really cant
you are just... so special to me!
NOT IN THAT WAY haha but you're really such a great friend
and there's things that i can tell you which i can never tell anyone us
and now...
UR ABANDONIN ME
omgosh.... horrifyin...

hahaha anw e afternoon was pretty fun
but yet sad at e same time
ruiyuan was completely bonks :)
jackson was shuffling n shufflin
jolyn n cheryl were just HIGH haha
and eve was just... well .. EVE!! hahaha

yup
but
it was really sad at e end of e day lol
bus-ed home with leon
AHHAHA u noe we took like 2 hours to get from orchard back to home
cos e road was jammie, AND the bus broke down
n we were kinda lazy to get off at first n we din noe whether we should or not so we retardedly sat there for like 10 min
finally got off... at NANYANG BUS STOP which is where e bus broke down...
so silly
haha...
e ride home was kinda awkward at first
cos i had so so so so so many things i wanted to say to him but it just couldnt queue up properly... but after we got off e bus we decided to walk one bus stop length
n i really had such a great great time talkin to him
AHAHAHA ... nvm shant go into detail LOL.

i'll miss you leon.
ill miss you like just... so so so so so so so much.

i need God's peace. so badly.

1 hour and ten min to eve's bday! woo!

im countin im countin...

"boys? u sick woman..

expected more of u...

GO FOR MEN

NOT BOYS"

LOL. ruiyuan is just so... HAHAHA.
pig. i should say.

anyway completed my chinese compo
n i don think its like the BEST compo ive ever written
hahaha
but yeah
over n done with.

was like gonna mug e afternoon away.
but eve called ahhaha!
n we talked for like 2 hours
omgosh i just realised at that moment that eve really is e closest friend that i have now
hahaha well i love her alot
i really do
she actually made me realise somethin abt myself jus now
haha
n tmr is her BIRTHDAY
so im really so happy for her!!!
omgosh i love ya eve u monkey that makes weird noises haha!

gonna get my work done now...
aiyo wat to do wat to do.

okay nvm cya!!!

HAPPY BDAY DANIELLLLLLLL :DDDDD

haha such a nice cuddly polar bear
gosh i love hangin out with you cos ur so full of crappy stuff hahaha!
anw yoyo man!
ur such a cool ass guy n i think ur so super amazin!!
i rmb e first time u prayed durin nacl... thats was such a GOOODDDD prayer man!!
haha
anw hope u continue to rise up within e cg n HOPE U QUITE NPCC N JOIN VOLLEYBALL NOW!
stop lettin ur camps miss cg!
haha

love you lots n lots!!
GOD BLESS YOU TOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO! :D

hahaha!
ok well
i gtg write my compo now which is due in 1 and a half hours
oh crap
but wanglaoshi won mind if its like 10 minutes late right
or 20 minutes... or more...
hahaha
okay!
cya bye!

GAHHHH

these two days have been good!
cg yesterday was fun
e message was kinda confusin for me n e message din really apply to my life
somethin abt emotional hurts of bitterroot unforgiveness
i was like huhhhh ahahaha
im glad ive managed to forgive.. or not get angry at anyone...
not becos im super cool or whatever (HAHA)... but becos im truly at e mercy of e blood of Christ
n who am i to say that i dislike this person Amen ??? :P
ahaha
yup but e message really touched certain parts of w445
i really think God is doin amazin things to try n solve e conflicts inbetween...
must be a united family!!!
Holy Spirit shall intercess!!!!

cg games was.. SPASTIC.
lol. i was so confused ALREADY
and isaac just had to choose a game which made me more n more confused
rahhh
forfeits was FUNNY AHAHAH
they had to sing a weirdo song

after cell... played a goodbye vid for leon n started writin on his guitar ):
aiiii ):
then celebrated eve's bday!! woo!!!

after that went out n went to anlynns house to stay over
anlynn lost her key or somethin HAHAHA so me jolyn n her were campin outside n tryin to pick e lock -.-
seriously, look so theft like muahaha

jolyn left at 11.30 around there
we talked for awhile n anlynn went to bathe
then me
when i came back.. anlynn was ASLEEP -.-
wake up friend!!!
ahaha
so me n eugene watched mr magorium's magic emporium AHAH until 1 +
i stopped watchin halfway n did qt n read angel's Good Morning Holy Spirit which just happened to be on her bed haha
it was amazin

slept n cabbed to church e next mornin wif cheuk ying angel n anlynn (SHES BACK, N MORE SPASTIC THAN EVERRR) ahahahaha

svc was great!!!
nicole came!! brittany came!! jasmine came!! sherman came!! BRANDON came!!!!

praise & worship was so darn good
we sang e same worships songs n durin deliverance last year
so i was so totally expectin deliverance... until they announced... NO DELIVERANCE
omg i just felt like dyin ahahhaha but God is darn interestin so im just gonna wait n see wat He is up to next haha!
nevertheless, svc was still powerful, especiall right after msg ended
gosh i just felt like sobbin, but it was such a peaceful atmosphere haha n i was just thinkin k la lata deliverance then cry la
100% REGRET man GRR!! haha

oh n evelina's cousins from america came today
so chio... (HAHAH ok i shant say anythin eve i think she got insulted like a bunch of times today)
brittany n jasmine n nicole!
gosh i love her cousins they r so.. cool Hahahah.. right... PRINCESS?:P

after svc went to mind cafe at dhoby ghaut there
krys drove 8 of us down LOL
i like faith better than eve hahahaha

mind cafe was pure fun
played retarded games
got sabo-ed alot durin TRUE COLORS
HEY
i wasnt blushin
i was wearin my jacket
n it was seriously hot!
HAHA ewwwwwww please

then leon got into his emo mode
n everyone at our table got really sad :(
LEON TANNNN
omg i cant believe ur leavin!
omg i just cant cant cant
i wanna cry so bad
ITS LEONNNNN
e precious so kind n sweet leon !!!!!!!

nvm
wed send him off then cry hahahaha

went home
ALICE was at my house lol
along wif my sis n astrid haha
all makin dumplings
ahhahaha
e night was quite funny LOL
cos alice is obsessed over me or sumthin
N BRANDON MADE HER CRY!!!
ahaha cos he called n we talked for awhile n my mum called her outside n she was sniffling away cos i ignored her HAHAHA
aiyo but shes so cute la :)
she even named her thamagotchi 'alice XIE' LOLLLLLL
creepy but cute
cutely creepy

okay gtg now... byeee! :D

ps. LEON!!!!
psps. MUMSINESS!!! ahahah okay kiddin kiddin -.-
pspsps. I WANNA CRY N CRY N CRY OUT TO GOD. cos He's where i find release from everything

MUAHAHAH

I LOVED TODAY!!!
YOUTH DAY FUN FAIR WAS SO FUN
I SHOUTED N SHOUTED FOR LIKE 3 HOURS CONTINUOUSLY N IT FELT SOOOO GOOD!

LOL HAHA e mornin was so stupid
rosanne kept sayin she saw ruiyuan and e bus stop
n audrey came so 3 of us went down to see
then no one wat, then i asked ry n matt
n they were like ?!?!?
so it was like a 'ROSANNEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!'
blur person u dream too much la, whole day daydreamin one AHAHA

haha
pauline is rite
at e start of everyday... pray to God that u can make a diff in someones life, or serve someone..
pauline is amazin!!!!

haha after sch trish came to my house
lol sorry man i was too tired i just showered n went to sleep
then we went to e indian restaurant outside my house
it was GOOODDDD yum

but it cost like 20 bucks altogether D:
haha
i was expectin like 5 bucks a person?
aha ok im too cheapo

tuition was great
cos we did e easy n fun topic of trig ratio ahha
n ben is givin me inspiration for math!
mauahha

gosh i gotta set my priorities between study n sleep
but its my awesome awesome bed :(
boooo hahaha

OKAY
watched victoria secret fashion show wif my sis jus now
i dun really like it
but i think heidi klum is SO CUTE!!!
seriously e way she talks n laughs n her actions
so adorable haha!

man oh man
n i was readin e chc weddin directory jus now
omg HAHAHAHA so funny
gosh but so much to prepare for a wedding!
nerice, i decided i dunwan get married liao!
but e cgl gets to be e entire weddin coordinator!
gosh that must be so awesome
haha but HOPEFULLY by e time im gettin married ill be a cgl already...
aiyo if thats my calling la haha :P

HU WANT TO BE MY BRIDESMAID????
AHHAHA

gosh
i shall go do some math now HAHAHA!!!
toodles!

i think today would hav been seriously sucky lol
but somehow it ended
weird

i felt retarded today
just retarded
muaha

i dunno la
e afternoon to evenin was so ... weird

God will be e solution for w445
aiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii :(

ydff tmr.
lol.

its durin these times i screw
that i love God more n more n more n more
until i feel so succumbed to His power
n everythin just feels so powerful
that i really feel like fallin down to His power n cryin

BLEH.

i wont blog details becos im just not happy n i dunwanna rant :P

bio sucked lol
but God was really sufficient for me
even thou ive been slackin for the past 4 days, or doin other subject hw
i managed to know most la
haha but dao mei everythin that i din hav time to study came out zzzz
the biomass chart, the dna, and std
the 3 things i did not study
walao i go indepth into menstrual cycle k n they tested one measly question abt that hahaha

after sch went nuh for eye checkup
hahah i dunno why im so sadistic abt this type of stuff
as in not really la, but bein healthy all th time gets borin, but when the pain actually comes, wish i'd nv said so.

yayyyy =]
im quite happy today
just talked to anlynn for one hour
its such a relief to get all the stuff outta me
i just realised the small stuff which i usually cant be bothered to say r actually botherin me more
i guess this is really a hard time for w445
or some of w445 anw
but God, we know that You're sufficient enuff for us

i thank God everyday for ppl like anlynn n chloe n matt in my life
becos it really just feels so good to be able to talk to ppl without feelin ashamed of certain things
becos its good to noe that they'll never judge u
becos even thou i noe i've got a billion ppl to tell all my surface problems to, i really know that those who r willin to listen n pester me billlions of msgs in a row when i refuse to reply em when im sad r jus really few
its funny how e ppl who noe u e best arent ur closest friends, n neither are u theirs
i noe that e ppl that i care abt most arent my best friends, n i may not like em e most -.-'''... but to me, they r just really really special friends, and i don think these type of friends can be earned, but it's really just a blessin from God... well... a REALLY amazin blessin from God :)
ppl like xy... ppl sumtimes dun understand why i really love her so much when we dun talk much anymore... but i can really tell them directly in e face that its becos when i need her, she is always always always there for me, she will nv dao me if i tell her im really sad, n she will ALWAYS pray for me face to face... no matter how bad her spiritual life may be.
so sometimes some of u ask me why i love her so much like so gross like that... but truly i ask u, when i was down, when u saw that i was cryin, did you pray for me even thou u were afraid?
people like these... they r just so rare... n thats why, i really love em so much, i really treasure em so much
haha ... God works in interestin ways
n as tired as i get, i really noe that His strength is SO sufficient for me, n i hate leanin on anythin else, cos it eventually screws haha, but with God, all just goes... so wonderfully well :)
cos right now, even thou i just really feel so unhappy in my mind
but theres a huge smile on my face, not plastered there, but true happiness becos i know that i love God n He loves me so much too :D