It's time for a new beginning (:

Today... spent my morning before service started browsing at attributes and looking through books. Felt something tugging me from one shelf to the next just looking for a book. Which was weird, cos i really didnt plan to spend my last fifty dollars of the month on a book. but... i eventually just couldn't seem to not buy dr yonggi cho's "prayer for revival" and weirdly... i had just the right amount to buy it. And that was after digging coin after coin up from my bag. Hmm... Yeah well i don't believe God lets any money, especially the last few precious dollars go to waste, and the book was truely great.

Not say the most WOW book written, but a book that was written based on personal testimony and experience so much that i could feel my spirit being fed by it. And that was proven when i was half dead on the way home - my spirit was just dying to pray. I was tired so tired so tired . And i came home. And i just prayed. Not long. 10 minutes only. Ah but it was a great prayer. A prayer where i really cried tears of release by just talking to God told Him honestly how i had been feeling for the past few days.

The feelings of defeat, helplessness just came pouring out. And i'm so thankful for that. And i believe things will improve. Even though dear suss called me in the middle of the project reminding me i had yet another project to complete, but i still felt good.

I need to pray more. Much much more.