It's time for a new beginning (:
history maker, here i come.Tuesday, August 25, 2009
:O
i bet y'all are surprised :O
Heehee well. Haven't been doing too well these too days. And today i finally got my ass up and really asked God what was next. And actually i was planning to stop blogging at the end of j1, or perhaps at the end of sec 4, but no.... God spoke to me. Today is the day :)
Well what can i say, should i organise a tribute or something. Honestly, i am quite sad lei. This blog has been with me since p5, it has motivated me when i am down, made me laugh at my own younger stupidity, and of course it has caused me to rant alot in the past. But yeah today when i leave this blog , it's gonna be left behind with a bunch of beautiful memories that i've experienced from my p5 life all the way till now - my sec 3 life. i'm still quite sad i was so happy in p6 that i didnt even have time to blog and now i cant remember too much, but yeah it's okay.
so this'll just be a space filled with my thoughts, opinions, feelings, emotions, joys, hurts, annoyances, anger, daily life for the past 4-5 years. Wa. didn't realise it was so long already. And nope, not planning to open a blog again :) It's time to move on.
Maybe my kid will see this one day. I hope blogger never closes down. Till then, byebye crayzee-fazzie-angel..... what a weirdly embarrassing name i used for like so many years. i'll miss you, honestly. but now it's time to focus on new stuff, explore new stuff and...
It's time to take on the world :)
Been sleeping and eating medicine and sleeping....
Really need to pray.
Gah.
Exhausted
Math quiz and culture exam tmr.
Gah.
Needta get up, and get a touch from heaven.
Really need to pray.
Gah.
Exhausted
Math quiz and culture exam tmr.
Gah.
Needta get up, and get a touch from heaven.
Monday, August 24, 2009
What a great great great video.
Well, i cried. I'm sure jo did (i think). Mao did. ambrose"OMGGG SOO NICEEE" (omggg so gay!). & many more.
THANK YOU YX !!!!! Haha. This vid is for all those going through hard times. Which i believe is everyone. So everyone, this vid is for you! :)
Sunday, August 23, 2009
HELlo. School wasnt that bad honestly. Last night was just totally me losing control :( I must practise what i preach. I told chelsea ytd must learn to act and not REact. Reacting is when the circumstance is in control of you. Acting is when you are in control of the circumstance. Yeah... Needta do that better. On the bright side, had a reallllllllllllllllly long prayer time with bestfwen over the phone ytd and it really made me alot happier :)
today physics quiz is the first time i'm so confident of doing well despite the fact that i didnt bring my calculator nor protractor and like mrs wong probably was thinkin i was copyin or sumthin haha. today tay ziwei slapped me alot :( idiot. and today i brought subway cookies for lunch, and coincidentally they were selling subway cookies. everyone kept asking if i bought it neh-eh. its b(R)ought haha.
Got back chinese compo :) my favourite part of chinese haha. i'm actually NOT BAD at it. omg. lol. yezzz so now im home and i really feel like swimming (despite not swimming in years) hahaha. yeah so bye!
today physics quiz is the first time i'm so confident of doing well despite the fact that i didnt bring my calculator nor protractor and like mrs wong probably was thinkin i was copyin or sumthin haha. today tay ziwei slapped me alot :( idiot. and today i brought subway cookies for lunch, and coincidentally they were selling subway cookies. everyone kept asking if i bought it neh-eh. its b(R)ought haha.
Got back chinese compo :) my favourite part of chinese haha. i'm actually NOT BAD at it. omg. lol. yezzz so now im home and i really feel like swimming (despite not swimming in years) hahaha. yeah so bye!
I NEED TO BE MORE STABLE.
I NEED TO BE MORE STABLE.
I NEED TO BE MORE STABLE.
I NEED TO BE MORE STABLE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
:( Havent felt like this in a longggggg while. last time i was so rocky was like a month ago. thought i finally got over it. i think i did. except this time the devils come back hating me more. (thats great, i know.)
i need to be more stable? i need to be more stable.... its times like this i feel like locking my blog up cos i just feel like hiding in my own little hole telling my feelings to God. ah. today mom gave me a talk on "THINKING MORE". Lol. and i finally realised. that the only reason i can qualified to be smart is cos i'm great at copying. not in that sense. it's like in bio - i'm e memory cell in the antibodies. i only know what i'm taught. i can never solve it for myself. i feel dam stupid la zzz thanks. i feel like running away........ how can i feel like this! i feel dam lousy at projects. i'm so lost. i always have no idea whats gg on. i thought i was meant to lead. phy quiz coming up. i've passed what one or two this term - determined to pass this time. just pray tmr no physics cos im still chionging math written task.
OKAY. NEED TO STOP WALLOWING IN SELF PITY. devil pls go away... pls go away... pls go away.... .
And... i lost my bible. When i look inside my extra i feel so lost. plus its niv.
Actually i think ill feel better after i do qt. i know i will. how can i not. but its project time. it always is.................................................... lalallalalala.
lalalallalala.. allalalalalalalallaa.
Need to be strong.
For God's kingdom
for my connect group
for 304
for my friend
for people God has held me accountable
need to be strong.
i wanna pray...
i wanna pray...
man i feel like whining.
Bible come back to me.
Actually. i feel better alr. hahaa. so scared abt tmr. i guess thats goliath in his armour trying to get me down. NOT GONNA BACK DOWN. go away la um gonna saw ur guts away goliath ;)
i wonder what happens... one day..... when all 3 leave? all i feel that all 3 leave???????
my gosh. i think. i'd be a dead living. living dead. but its faith to carry on. mrewowwowowowowwoowowwowowowo
I NEED TO BE MORE STABLE.
I NEED TO BE MORE STABLE.
I NEED TO BE MORE STABLE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
:( Havent felt like this in a longggggg while. last time i was so rocky was like a month ago. thought i finally got over it. i think i did. except this time the devils come back hating me more. (thats great, i know.)
i need to be more stable? i need to be more stable.... its times like this i feel like locking my blog up cos i just feel like hiding in my own little hole telling my feelings to God. ah. today mom gave me a talk on "THINKING MORE". Lol. and i finally realised. that the only reason i can qualified to be smart is cos i'm great at copying. not in that sense. it's like in bio - i'm e memory cell in the antibodies. i only know what i'm taught. i can never solve it for myself. i feel dam stupid la zzz thanks. i feel like running away........ how can i feel like this! i feel dam lousy at projects. i'm so lost. i always have no idea whats gg on. i thought i was meant to lead. phy quiz coming up. i've passed what one or two this term - determined to pass this time. just pray tmr no physics cos im still chionging math written task.
OKAY. NEED TO STOP WALLOWING IN SELF PITY. devil pls go away... pls go away... pls go away.... .
And... i lost my bible. When i look inside my extra i feel so lost. plus its niv.
Actually i think ill feel better after i do qt. i know i will. how can i not. but its project time. it always is.................................................... lalallalalala.
lalalallalala.. allalalalalalalallaa.
Need to be strong.
For God's kingdom
for my connect group
for 304
for my friend
for people God has held me accountable
need to be strong.
i wanna pray...
i wanna pray...
man i feel like whining.
Bible come back to me.
Actually. i feel better alr. hahaa. so scared abt tmr. i guess thats goliath in his armour trying to get me down. NOT GONNA BACK DOWN. go away la um gonna saw ur guts away goliath ;)
i wonder what happens... one day..... when all 3 leave? all i feel that all 3 leave???????
my gosh. i think. i'd be a dead living. living dead. but its faith to carry on. mrewowwowowowowwoowowwowowowo
Need to......... Get out and do something. Heehee trying to get out of China school trip to go for Journalism course. Otherwise i'll be gone from church for 5 weeks D: I'll die. Not feeling too good today. Physically. Spiritually happy. Emotionally tired. Need to pray abit more :) Get out of this mindset. Stop being so lazy. Become smarter. Stop looking from your own perspective. Look at God's persperctive. Ahhh.
I miss you krystleeee.
And i need you God....
so much i feel as if i'm gg to faint. well. its back to work. and back to mugging. dont know how im gonna get thru. i never do. but God somehow always makes it okay anw.
I'll praise You anytime:)
I miss you krystleeee.
And i need you God....
so much i feel as if i'm gg to faint. well. its back to work. and back to mugging. dont know how im gonna get thru. i never do. but God somehow always makes it okay anw.
I'll praise You anytime:)
Pick up your 5 stones :)
I think the messages these few weeks have seriously been amazing. So life-changing. So faith-implementing. Being faithful in the little things, defeating your goliath. Today is, the most amazing guy's birthday ever...... PASTOR KONG HEE! He is simply such an amazing pastor. All the numerous and uncountably painful sacrifices. He really does inspire me. How a young, scrawny man could have enough faith to build the largest church in singapore - possibly largest in the world in the next 20years eh cityharvest? :p How all he started with was a vision - and he stayed close to it and God's heart. And look where he is now. Without him, i wouldn't have been saved during the darkest moment in my life. Thank you for this great vessel God :)
Yup so today's message really inspired me that we haveta start defeating our goliaths and not let them defeat us. Heehee pastor so funny blaspheming hahahaha.
Went to plaza sing after and bused home :)
good day indeed.
lotsa work to get done but gonna sleep and pray first.
bye!(: it's gonna be an awesome week ahead.
Saturday, August 22, 2009
It's been a busy two days. Yesterday school was ... i thought it was gonna be so tough. But the days where i go in unprepared and most full of fear with my only thought that if i don't have God i'll commit suicide, are the days where i really see such blessings. At night, we went to celebrate ajays 18th birthday!!!! that idiot let his phone go flat and ended up coming home at 10.40, only cos his friend told us we were at his house alr, idiot lor pls ajay. haha anyway happy birthday (:
today woke up at 12pm. super tired. yeah woke up chiong cme and then rushed out for cell. gave bs to felicia and wenglin before cell. then after went to cell. pauline preached! :) Heeeheee it was such an awesome message oh man i love pauline!!!!!!!! yup and then talked to the girls. Har... SCGS girls... prayer meeting! FINALLY. good job eveeeee. :)
anyway today is the phenomenal day that i received my all-wanted
ED HARDY SHIRT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
feel so ai-ed ha still been receiving presents week after week for my birthday:P i think it will conclude with meme's next week .
really feel like eating chips now mmm
OKAY BB NEEDTA CATCHUP WITH THAT MOUNTAIN OF WORK!!
Faithfulness - always produces fruitfulness. I'll never forget that.
Thursday, August 20, 2009
Tuition at 10.30 finished 12.30. Lunch hokkien me at bt market, went krys house. talked, anlynn +isaac came for bs. Yixuan too. Bs was.... great :) applicable to wat i'm gonna haveta go through today. woohoo!
Haha.
Yeah so theres a tonne of work to get done tonight. It's up for me to trust God.
Toodles :)
Haha.
Yeah so theres a tonne of work to get done tonight. It's up for me to trust God.
Toodles :)
Wednesday, August 19, 2009
Heyyy. Been doing pretty much nothing today. But thats okay. Body really needed a break (: Haha yeah so i was just reading through my april - may blog posts all over again. And now i'm really smilingly happily grateful for God letting me go through what i did. Even though on my part, it was a mistake made, it was a temptation that i failed to resist, but God still managed to turn many wrongs into a happy conclusion.
I don't regret the pain, i don't regret the stress, i don't regret the neverending tears day after day for weeks in a row. i don't regret the emptiness, i don't regret feeling numb 99% of the time, i don't regret the fear, i don't regret the uncertainty.
Just a word of encouragement today, guys if you want to give it all to God, than make sure you give it all. Don't just decide to give all and then halfway you feel that its too pain and you just give up and decide to meet your own needs first. Remember, don't try to meet your own needs, let God meet your needs, He'll do a much better job.
Stop saying you cant get through the pain the hurt the stress. All these things do happen yes, but if you say that you can't get through then you're really not sure of who God is at all. In fact whenever we sin, any single way, it's really because we have such a small understanding of who God is.
Humble yourself today... He'll bless you more than you can ever imagine. He has to me
:)
And it doesn't stop there. The blessings keep coming. As long as you keep pleasing Him.
1 Corinthians 1:10 (New International Version)
Divisions in the Church
10I appeal to you, brothers, in the name of our Lord Jesus
Christ, that all of you agree with one another so that there may be no divisions
among you and that you may be perfectly united in mind and thought.
1 Corinthians 1:10 (New International Version)
Divisions in the Church
10I appeal to you, brothers, in the name of our Lord JesusChrist, that all of you agree with one another so that there may be no divisions
among you and that you may be perfectly united in mind and thought.
Why is it that so often that we get so caught up with ourselves, our problems, our issues, our own selfish thoughts that we forget that it's God we're living for, working for, and glorifying.
Now i understand the importance of verse memory. Not just for helping you out through a hard time, but to keep you from doing wrong in a hard time. Life's not all about us. It's about God. If the Bible is God's Mind written in word, it means here that He's literally begging us.. "I appeal to you" to be "united". United in what? Gossip? Scandal? Hurt? Wrong. United in the word of God.
Let's love one another more today and stop having so little faith but instead, stop worrying and believe that God has made a perfect way out as long as we carry out what His Word has Willed.
Tuesday, August 18, 2009
Helloooooooooooo. 8 am :) Blogging :) Heh well ytd school was.... Fun. Weirdly. Cos quite alot of slack periods. Then the non slack periods were all all all my awesome periods like bio ih and la.
Yeah so yesterday miraculous wonders happened to me.... :) After praying in the morning with hannahhhhhh. Heeheee I was literally crying out to God over ny.
awesome things that happened:
1) No math yesterday = No quiz = Today have quiz = I'm not in school = NO QUIZ
2) No Culture test, postponed to next week!!!!!
3) Chinese SIA presentation postponed to FRIDAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY
4) LA SIA presentation postponed to NEXT WEEKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK
And since i'm not in school. My dearest CME grp doesnt have to do cme today. Wahahahhaa.
Yeah went home ytd after having such a bad headache the entire day + aaaaaaaaaachooing + .. (nose) flowing all day and felt so .asdajdasjdakdjaa.... But couldnt sleep cos bad headache so popped three pills and slept too much and mum excused me from school today :)
Okay need to pray now... God's been waiting for me for quite awhile. Bb!
Yeah so yesterday miraculous wonders happened to me.... :) After praying in the morning with hannahhhhhh. Heeheee I was literally crying out to God over ny.
awesome things that happened:
1) No math yesterday = No quiz = Today have quiz = I'm not in school = NO QUIZ
2) No Culture test, postponed to next week!!!!!
3) Chinese SIA presentation postponed to FRIDAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY
4) LA SIA presentation postponed to NEXT WEEKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK
And since i'm not in school. My dearest CME grp doesnt have to do cme today. Wahahahhaa.
Yeah went home ytd after having such a bad headache the entire day + aaaaaaaaaachooing + .. (nose) flowing all day and felt so .asdajdasjdakdjaa.... But couldnt sleep cos bad headache so popped three pills and slept too much and mum excused me from school today :)
Okay need to pray now... God's been waiting for me for quite awhile. Bb!
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