It's time for a new beginning (:

I NEED TO BE MORE STABLE.
I NEED TO BE MORE STABLE.
I NEED TO BE MORE STABLE.

I NEED TO BE MORE STABLE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

:( Havent felt like this in a longggggg while. last time i was so rocky was like a month ago. thought i finally got over it. i think i did. except this time the devils come back hating me more. (thats great, i know.)

i need to be more stable? i need to be more stable.... its times like this i feel like locking my blog up cos i just feel like hiding in my own little hole telling my feelings to God. ah. today mom gave me a talk on "THINKING MORE". Lol. and i finally realised. that the only reason i can qualified to be smart is cos i'm great at copying. not in that sense. it's like in bio - i'm e memory cell in the antibodies. i only know what i'm taught. i can never solve it for myself. i feel dam stupid la zzz thanks. i feel like running away........ how can i feel like this! i feel dam lousy at projects. i'm so lost. i always have no idea whats gg on. i thought i was meant to lead. phy quiz coming up. i've passed what one or two this term - determined to pass this time. just pray tmr no physics cos im still chionging math written task.

OKAY. NEED TO STOP WALLOWING IN SELF PITY. devil pls go away... pls go away... pls go away.... .


And... i lost my bible. When i look inside my extra i feel so lost. plus its niv.


Actually i think ill feel better after i do qt. i know i will. how can i not. but its project time. it always is.................................................... lalallalalala.
lalalallalala.. allalalalalalalallaa.


Need to be strong.
For God's kingdom
for my connect group
for 304
for my friend
for people God has held me accountable
need to be strong.

i wanna pray...
i wanna pray...
man i feel like whining.

Bible come back to me.
Actually. i feel better alr. hahaa. so scared abt tmr. i guess thats goliath in his armour trying to get me down. NOT GONNA BACK DOWN. go away la um gonna saw ur guts away goliath ;)

i wonder what happens... one day..... when all 3 leave? all i feel that all 3 leave???????
my gosh. i think. i'd be a dead living. living dead. but its faith to carry on. mrewowwowowowowwoowowwowowowo