broken. broken. broken. broken. broken
i need faith to get thru the week ahead.
i'm not prepared for chem.
so many follow ups this week
so much craziness to heal
need to hide under God's wings
just hide there
and hide there.
God...
chem exam this week...
i cannot afford anymore B's after my chinese
God i'm not prepared
and i don't have time to prepared
how God how
:(
how. how. how. how. how.
i feel so screwed.
God...
i know you placed my exams right in the middle of easter for a reason.
again, i dont have the time for things to heal.
i need to trust... trust..
i don't know how to trust
when to trust
trust? what thing.
trust? how long more till i get out of this? it seems like never... and yup, it is going to be a never, becos i don't think i can get out of this, not becos its the lost faith, but its like because.. i'm not meant to, it's a different way out.
i'm hurt. i'm broken. i'm down. i'm anxious. i'm nervous. i'm skeptical. i'm unprepared. i'm shattered. i'm weak. i'm lost. lost. lost. lost. lost. lost. lost. lost. i'm lost
but. I'm... also a child of God.
and seriously when did trusting ever involve knowing how to trust or circumstance dependency?
God says "trust me". Just do it, and let God take over.
AND I WILL BE VICTORIOUS.
i dont care how many disappointments have come.
again, who said faith was dependent on a limited amount of disappointments?
faith is trusting in God, even if you feel you've been let down a billion times before.
becos the billion and oneth try might be the one.
