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Sunday, March 30, 2008

ahah you know what.

don't waste your time reading it.

let's just leave it in simple words.

i'm troubled.

BUT.

i know God will make a way.

one way or another :)

i know that this week is going to be hard..
this last week before a whole new year starts for me..

i know that the devil's going to attack me again and again to try and do things which i have prevented myself from doing since i was born again

i know that people are going to judge me, people are going to gossip about me, people are going to throw huge tempers to make me feel lost, people are going to give me that "whatever .. Christian" look, but.

there are all 'people' doing things to me. why should i care how they judge me.... because.
It's all about God. only God. always God. just. God.and one day... they're going to thank me, and be touched by me, and i think that the happiness of seeing a friend saved is worth the pain going through.

i wonder sometimes if 205, they realise how much their hurting each other.
truth be told, i sometimes really want to bash all of them when i see them.
sometimes i feel that i really will lose my temper.
but, i don't.
because, i know the devil is pathetic. just so super pathetic.
using these type of retarded ways to try to split the world up.
and i'll never ever let him take over.
not because i've got strength of mind, but because, i'm with the Lord.

i wonder, when the world will come into the light.

but, i guess, its my duty here.
to keep on asking and praying, that one day, i can go to school and be in a class that is filled with laughter and joy.
filled with the love i feel, when i'm with w445.

people are going to judge me
people are going to feel uncomfortable with me
people are going to keep their distance away from me
but HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
do i sound like i care?

i can have the whole world hate me and turn against me
just as long as God loves me, and i know i'm doing His will, i can never feel happier.

this week.
the devil is gonna tempt me to CURSE.
the devil is gonna tempt me to LOSE MY TEMPER.
the devil is gonna tempt me to GIVE UP on those whom im reaching out to.
the devil is gonna tempt me to let him take hold
the devil is gonna tempt me be EMOTIONALLY HURT by what people think of me

but.....................................I'M NOT GOING TO LOSE.
i know i'm not going to.
but for now, i don't know how to get through it either.
i need guidance.

but for now, lets let GOD take hold (:
for He most definitely WILL make a way :)

April 6th. Most precious day. Of my life. COME QUICK! :D

posted by TMcharlie # 6:24 AM

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