It's time for a new beginning (:

I'm sorry okay.
I can't help it.
Curse back at me.
I DON'T CARE.

How can I tell you anything
I cant find things to say to you.
I remember the last time I called you
My mind was BLANK?

So maybe I've changed.
Does that mean I'm any happier?
For weeks I've been feeling like cutting myself
Then I thought about you.
Would it hurt you?
I didn't know.
But just in case,
I'd stay.

I don't know what's wrong with me.
When I'm by myself.
Everything is flooding in to me
Then I come on msn
I want to talk to you.
Suddenly.
My mind is blank.
I feel as if I don't even know you
Like you're a stranger.
WHY.

I've given myself time.
I've waited for a month.
I should be happy by now.
Everyone is happy now.
They've adapted.
But, I feel like an asshole that doesn't fit in
I'm lost without you.
I'm so pathetic.
Hate me.
Just another one that hates me now
WHO CARES.

Yea, I have a new clique.
Sure, I like my friends.
But I can't like them.
I FEEL GUILTY.
I do have an attitude problem.
No one can replace you.
I just don't know what to say to you anymore.
Everything's weird.

And it's alright.
I won't blame you for not being here for me
I know you're busy, okay?
I don't hate you for anything.
Maybe I have.
But my Piggy can't be replaced.

Projects, have 7 of them now.
It's fun.
But I'm thinking,
Won't it be so much better if it was the old gang again?
Won't it be so much more fun?
I just failed my first project.
Sweet huh.
I'm a failure

And do you think I haven't tried calling you?
Everytime i pick up the phone.
I dial your number.
Then I somehow freak out.
And just hang up.
WHAT AM I GOING TO SAY TO HER WHEN SHE PICKS UP?
"Hello, hi do you remember me? I'm the bastard and I'm bored."
Huh. Interesting.

I'll never laugh at you.
Crescent is a great school.
You're gonna do well there.
Me? I'm near the bottom of my level.
Everyone is better then me.
I've got some fucking scholars in my class.
Tests come back: FAIL.
My teachers hate me.
Always have so who cares.

No one will know if they have changed.
Everything may seem the same to you.
But to other people.
You're a stranger.



And, thank you for writing a post to me.
I'm greatful to you.
I've realised I'm such an idiotic bastard.
Shoot me yea?
Forget me.
I don't deserve such a great friend like you.

Fly away my kukubird.
I'll catch you if your wings break :D