It's time for a new beginning (:

2010-07-13T01:25:00.000-07:00

THANKS !~!!!!: )

My extension on this Application
For an extension of this application, I chose to come up with my own example of a question and solving it. The type of question I will be doing is a maximum and minimum question with regards to the topic of differentiation, because I feel that within this topic, these type of questions are my weakest and most unclear area and I would like to increase my understanding of it by coming up with a question and answer myself.
First, I need to come up with the general idea of the question. For example, one day, the Singapore Government decided that they want to construct a pipeline across the bukit timah area via Bukit Timah Hill. However, that area is protected under the National Parks. So, they have to make sure that the pipe is made extremely deep into the ground, so that it will not affect any wildlife. However, because it is a natural area, some of the soil underground is too hard to construct through, so the government has to make sure that the pipelines constructed avoids such areas.
Second, I will draw a diagram:

Third, I will add in numerical details. Point C is 1000 m west of A. The construction cost is 30 000 dollars per hundred metres in the forest, and 20 000 dollars per hundred metres along the edge of the forest.
Fourthly, the question. Determine the crossing point B which will result in the minimum construction cost for the pipeline

2009-08-25T01:50:00.000-07:00

i bet y'all are surprised :O

Heehee well. Haven't been doing too well these too days. And today i finally got my ass up and really asked God what was next. And actually i was planning to stop blogging at the end of j1, or perhaps at the end of sec 4, but no.... God spoke to me. Today is the day :)

Well what can i say, should i organise a tribute or something. Honestly, i am quite sad lei. This blog has been with me since p5, it has motivated me when i am down, made me laugh at my own younger stupidity, and of course it has caused me to rant alot in the past. But yeah today when i leave this blog , it's gonna be left behind with a bunch of beautiful memories that i've experienced from my p5 life all the way till now - my sec 3 life. i'm still quite sad i was so happy in p6 that i didnt even have time to blog and now i cant remember too much, but yeah it's okay.

so this'll just be a space filled with my thoughts, opinions, feelings, emotions, joys, hurts, annoyances, anger, daily life for the past 4-5 years. Wa. didn't realise it was so long already. And nope, not planning to open a blog again :) It's time to move on.

Maybe my kid will see this one day. I hope blogger never closes down. Till then, byebye crayzee-fazzie-angel..... what a weirdly embarrassing name i used for like so many years. i'll miss you, honestly. but now it's time to focus on new stuff, explore new stuff and...

It's time to take on the world :)

2009-08-25T00:22:00.000-07:00

Been sleeping and eating medicine and sleeping....

Really need to pray.
Gah.

Exhausted
Math quiz and culture exam tmr.

Gah.

Needta get up, and get a touch from heaven.

2009-08-24T08:37:00.000-07:00

What a great great great video.

Well, i cried. I'm sure jo did (i think). Mao did. ambrose"OMGGG SOO NICEEE" (omggg so gay!). & many more.
THANK YOU YX !!!!! Haha. This vid is for all those going through hard times. Which i believe is everyone. So everyone, this vid is for you! :)

2009-08-23T23:55:00.000-07:00

HELlo. School wasnt that bad honestly. Last night was just totally me losing control :( I must practise what i preach. I told chelsea ytd must learn to act and not REact. Reacting is when the circumstance is in control of you. Acting is when you are in control of the circumstance. Yeah... Needta do that better. On the bright side, had a reallllllllllllllllly long prayer time with bestfwen over the phone ytd and it really made me alot happier :)

today physics quiz is the first time i'm so confident of doing well despite the fact that i didnt bring my calculator nor protractor and like mrs wong probably was thinkin i was copyin or sumthin haha. today tay ziwei slapped me alot :( idiot. and today i brought subway cookies for lunch, and coincidentally they were selling subway cookies. everyone kept asking if i bought it neh-eh. its b(R)ought haha.

Got back chinese compo :) my favourite part of chinese haha. i'm actually NOT BAD at it. omg. lol. yezzz so now im home and i really feel like swimming (despite not swimming in years) hahaha. yeah so bye!

2009-08-23T06:47:00.000-07:00

I NEED TO BE MORE STABLE.
I NEED TO BE MORE STABLE.
I NEED TO BE MORE STABLE.

I NEED TO BE MORE STABLE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

:( Havent felt like this in a longggggg while. last time i was so rocky was like a month ago. thought i finally got over it. i think i did. except this time the devils come back hating me more. (thats great, i know.)

i need to be more stable? i need to be more stable.... its times like this i feel like locking my blog up cos i just feel like hiding in my own little hole telling my feelings to God. ah. today mom gave me a talk on "THINKING MORE". Lol. and i finally realised. that the only reason i can qualified to be smart is cos i'm great at copying. not in that sense. it's like in bio - i'm e memory cell in the antibodies. i only know what i'm taught. i can never solve it for myself. i feel dam stupid la zzz thanks. i feel like running away........ how can i feel like this! i feel dam lousy at projects. i'm so lost. i always have no idea whats gg on. i thought i was meant to lead. phy quiz coming up. i've passed what one or two this term - determined to pass this time. just pray tmr no physics cos im still chionging math written task.

OKAY. NEED TO STOP WALLOWING IN SELF PITY. devil pls go away... pls go away... pls go away.... .

And... i lost my bible. When i look inside my extra i feel so lost. plus its niv.

Actually i think ill feel better after i do qt. i know i will. how can i not. but its project time. it always is.................................................... lalallalalala.
lalalallalala.. allalalalalalalallaa.

Need to be strong.
For God's kingdom
for my connect group
for 304
for my friend
for people God has held me accountable
need to be strong.

i wanna pray...
i wanna pray...
man i feel like whining.

Bible come back to me.
Actually. i feel better alr. hahaa. so scared abt tmr. i guess thats goliath in his armour trying to get me down. NOT GONNA BACK DOWN. go away la um gonna saw ur guts away goliath ;)

i wonder what happens... one day..... when all 3 leave? all i feel that all 3 leave???????
my gosh. i think. i'd be a dead living. living dead. but its faith to carry on. mrewowwowowowowwoowowwowowowo

2009-08-23T05:04:00.000-07:00

Need to......... Get out and do something. Heehee trying to get out of China school trip to go for Journalism course. Otherwise i'll be gone from church for 5 weeks D: I'll die. Not feeling too good today. Physically. Spiritually happy. Emotionally tired. Need to pray abit more :) Get out of this mindset. Stop being so lazy. Become smarter. Stop looking from your own perspective. Look at God's persperctive. Ahhh.

I miss you krystleeee.
And i need you God....

so much i feel as if i'm gg to faint. well. its back to work. and back to mugging. dont know how im gonna get thru. i never do. but God somehow always makes it okay anw.

I'll praise You anytime:)

2009-08-23T02:39:00.000-07:00

Pick up your 5 stones :)

I think the messages these few weeks have seriously been amazing. So life-changing. So faith-implementing. Being faithful in the little things, defeating your goliath. Today is, the most amazing guy's birthday ever...... PASTOR KONG HEE! He is simply such an amazing pastor. All the numerous and uncountably painful sacrifices. He really does inspire me. How a young, scrawny man could have enough faith to build the largest church in singapore - possibly largest in the world in the next 20years eh cityharvest? :p How all he started with was a vision - and he stayed close to it and God's heart. And look where he is now. Without him, i wouldn't have been saved during the darkest moment in my life. Thank you for this great vessel God :)

Yup so today's message really inspired me that we haveta start defeating our goliaths and not let them defeat us. Heehee pastor so funny blaspheming hahahaha.

Went to plaza sing after and bused home :)

good day indeed.

lotsa work to get done but gonna sleep and pray first.

bye!(: it's gonna be an awesome week ahead.

2009-08-22T09:17:00.000-07:00

It's been a busy two days. Yesterday school was ... i thought it was gonna be so tough. But the days where i go in unprepared and most full of fear with my only thought that if i don't have God i'll commit suicide, are the days where i really see such blessings. At night, we went to celebrate ajays 18th birthday!!!! that idiot let his phone go flat and ended up coming home at 10.40, only cos his friend told us we were at his house alr, idiot lor pls ajay. haha anyway happy birthday (:

today woke up at 12pm. super tired. yeah woke up chiong cme and then rushed out for cell. gave bs to felicia and wenglin before cell. then after went to cell. pauline preached! :) Heeeheee it was such an awesome message oh man i love pauline!!!!!!!! yup and then talked to the girls. Har... SCGS girls... prayer meeting! FINALLY. good job eveeeee. :)

anyway today is the phenomenal day that i received my all-wanted

ED HARDY SHIRT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

feel so ai-ed ha still been receiving presents week after week for my birthday:P i think it will conclude with meme's next week .

really feel like eating chips now mmm

OKAY BB NEEDTA CATCHUP WITH THAT MOUNTAIN OF WORK!!

Faithfulness - always produces fruitfulness. I'll never forget that.

2009-08-20T03:28:00.000-07:00

Tuition at 10.30 finished 12.30. Lunch hokkien me at bt market, went krys house. talked, anlynn +isaac came for bs. Yixuan too. Bs was.... great :) applicable to wat i'm gonna haveta go through today. woohoo!

Haha.

Yeah so theres a tonne of work to get done tonight. It's up for me to trust God.

Toodles :)

2009-08-19T03:28:00.000-07:00

Heyyy. Been doing pretty much nothing today. But thats okay. Body really needed a break (: Haha yeah so i was just reading through my april - may blog posts all over again. And now i'm really smilingly happily grateful for God letting me go through what i did. Even though on my part, it was a mistake made, it was a temptation that i failed to resist, but God still managed to turn many wrongs into a happy conclusion.

I don't regret the pain, i don't regret the stress, i don't regret the neverending tears day after day for weeks in a row. i don't regret the emptiness, i don't regret feeling numb 99% of the time, i don't regret the fear, i don't regret the uncertainty.

Just a word of encouragement today, guys if you want to give it all to God, than make sure you give it all. Don't just decide to give all and then halfway you feel that its too pain and you just give up and decide to meet your own needs first. Remember, don't try to meet your own needs, let God meet your needs, He'll do a much better job.

Stop saying you cant get through the pain the hurt the stress. All these things do happen yes, but if you say that you can't get through then you're really not sure of who God is at all. In fact whenever we sin, any single way, it's really because we have such a small understanding of who God is.

Humble yourself today... He'll bless you more than you can ever imagine. He has to me

And it doesn't stop there. The blessings keep coming. As long as you keep pleasing Him.

2009-08-19T01:51:00.000-07:00

1 Corinthians 1:10 (New International Version)
Divisions in the Church
¹⁰I appeal to you, brothers, in the name of our Lord Jesus
Christ, that all of you agree with one another so that there may be no divisions
among you and that you may be perfectly united in mind and thought.

Why is it that so often that we get so caught up with ourselves, our problems, our issues, our own selfish thoughts that we forget that it's God we're living for, working for, and glorifying.

Now i understand the importance of verse memory. Not just for helping you out through a hard time, but to keep you from doing wrong in a hard time. Life's not all about us. It's about God. If the Bible is God's Mind written in word, it means here that He's literally begging us.. "I appeal to you" to be "united". United in what? Gossip? Scandal? Hurt? Wrong. United in the word of God.

Let's love one another more today and stop having so little faith but instead, stop worrying and believe that God has made a perfect way out as long as we carry out what His Word has Willed.

2009-08-18T16:54:00.000-07:00

Helloooooooooooo. 8 am :) Blogging :) Heh well ytd school was.... Fun. Weirdly. Cos quite alot of slack periods. Then the non slack periods were all all all my awesome periods like bio ih and la.

Yeah so yesterday miraculous wonders happened to me.... :) After praying in the morning with hannahhhhhh. Heeheee I was literally crying out to God over ny.

awesome things that happened:

1) No math yesterday = No quiz = Today have quiz = I'm not in school = NO QUIZ
2) No Culture test, postponed to next week!!!!!
3) Chinese SIA presentation postponed to FRIDAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY
4) LA SIA presentation postponed to NEXT WEEKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK

And since i'm not in school. My dearest CME grp doesnt have to do cme today. Wahahahhaa.

Yeah went home ytd after having such a bad headache the entire day + aaaaaaaaaachooing + .. (nose) flowing all day and felt so .asdajdasjdakdjaa.... But couldnt sleep cos bad headache so popped three pills and slept too much and mum excused me from school today :)

Okay need to pray now... God's been waiting for me for quite awhile. Bb!

2009-08-17T00:58:00.000-07:00

BAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAABAAAA.

Today i woke up feeling burdened. But i've started my prayer routine, so... it felt a lot better. Went for school pm in the morning and then physics. Paid full attention ohmywow. Then Math... was feeling super tired. Teachers day audition, well it wasnt BAD, but honestly it was worse than the first one except some words were more clear and distinct this time. Anyhow, by God's will (:

Then ate brownies *woohooooo* and had bio. bio quiz first didnt study for it at all didnt even know it was today :/ Got back bio paper, 84% (: i seem to be getting the same for 2 sciences each time. Love my bio !!!! CME presentation and chinese paper S: okay... Haha. then some talk during cct about some leadership development programme. Came home . bought mogumogu!!

Things to do today:
1) Make a file
2) Study for CC2 ... so-called EOY exam (memorising chinese. ANCIENT CHINESE!! D:)
3) Study trigo quiz, which she awesomely informed us abt today.

More things. but thats what i haveta get done TODAY.

PS. Ex-ny girl got presidents scholar so we have holiday on thursday mua-ha-ha thank you claire soon.

2009-08-16T07:20:00.000-07:00

I love the song on Jolyn's blog.... It's making me cry and cry :O I have no idea why.... Even though these are bad times.... Oh man i thank God i thank thank thank Him for being here for me.

When i heard the song... i thought of God 2 people and my family..... and i realised how much i loved them today. Thank you thank you thank you for giving me a shoulder to cry on. I dont cry to people much but these few people.... thank you for sharing my burdens with me. Those times when i just cried and cried and cried and cried like 4 hours in a row... who could i entrust myself to but you guys?

and to w445 too... where on earth would i find a beter spiritual family than you? oo man im so emotional now AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
my gosh its like the surprise party deja vu.

THANK YOU GOD!!!
THANK YOU!!! (:

thanks for e song too jo love you muack muack muack!

2009-08-16T00:43:00.000-07:00

Today... spent my morning before service started browsing at attributes and looking through books. Felt something tugging me from one shelf to the next just looking for a book. Which was weird, cos i really didnt plan to spend my last fifty dollars of the month on a book. but... i eventually just couldn't seem to not buy dr yonggi cho's "prayer for revival" and weirdly... i had just the right amount to buy it. And that was after digging coin after coin up from my bag. Hmm... Yeah well i don't believe God lets any money, especially the last few precious dollars go to waste, and the book was truely great.

Not say the most WOW book written, but a book that was written based on personal testimony and experience so much that i could feel my spirit being fed by it. And that was proven when i was half dead on the way home - my spirit was just dying to pray. I was tired so tired so tired . And i came home. And i just prayed. Not long. 10 minutes only. Ah but it was a great prayer. A prayer where i really cried tears of release by just talking to God told Him honestly how i had been feeling for the past few days.

The feelings of defeat, helplessness just came pouring out. And i'm so thankful for that. And i believe things will improve. Even though dear suss called me in the middle of the project reminding me i had yet another project to complete, but i still felt good.

I need to pray more. Much much more.

2009-08-15T07:36:00.000-07:00

God, You've done it before, You can do it again, please give me a helper in 304. Not just a temporary one. One that has authority, one that speaks and people listens, one that is willing to serve and sacrifice.

Take away the bitterness....
Today was a good cell, had a good talk with meme and prayed with e girls after that. Concert with rita. Starts with the little to get a soul in :) Drinking mogu mogu! Yeay!

Feeling so... burdened these few days. God'll always make things better.

God... i know You can use me to make an impact on my own. But i wish, i hope, i pray for a helper because i know when 2 work together, nothing nothing nothing can ever come against them.

LAZY PEOPLE = OUT
SERVANTHOOD = IN

2009-08-14T06:50:00.000-07:00

I went for pm. 20 minutes late, but i know that it will not go to waste. And i'm willing to wait God, i am willing.

haha... its sad to be disappointed by one group of people... but then another one comes in. And its just... Haha... Had dinner at delifrance - By myself. Parents ate at chinese restaurant with their friends. Reading the book - God's smuggler. I think its one of the minimally few things that keep me pressing on.

I have to be strong.
I need to get those pre ordered files done.
I need to finish Chinese SIA
I need to finish LA SIA
I need to finish cme.

Gg to tims concert tmr. Never thought it wld be such a sacrifice. For a soul, fine.

3+1(socalled) projects. Shake the dust of your feet julie. Continue trying new methods, new ways, and be faithful.

Be faithful. God is bigger than my problems. God is good, in the good times and in the bad. He is good all the time.

2009-08-14T00:55:00.001-07:00

Today is friday. Today... how should i describe it. Okay basically. If i didnt have God, i would kill myself. Since i do.... I'm still smiling. I don't really know how i'm doing it. I really am becoming more stable.

Well today was youth day fun fair.
bad points about today:

I got scolded by chen lin in the morning for not sending a representative ytd
I didn't bring my file and my parents had to send it
I just couldn't get the class to move up.
The class was just chionging all the files.
Half the class didn't turn up properly for their duty
I stayed there for the entire funfair except first 20 min when i went to buy stuff so that they could make more files and an ice cream.
The files did sold okay, but everyone wanted the stars.
Somehow suddenly everyone seemed to be giving inspirational ideas about the files - too late.
Counted the money. I dont want to disclose.
Found out that a whole group of people slacking in class. Who can i trust in class now?
Got back physics results.
But praise God that i confessed He is not a failing God, tcher marked wrong 3 marks so moved from fail to pass.
Happy for that, but totally disappointed at the results.
Quit physics tuition cos my parents not happy.
Accidentally let the scholars go home cos some other monitor said so (not saying who, not ur fault!!)
Hope i dont get scolded next week.

Good things that happened today
God.

And now i'm home....
Thank God i know that He's good.
Thank God i can still smile.
Thank God i'm not even crying.

And i praise God for the future.
I know it's going to get better. This is just like the connect group. And i'm not giving up.

But i thank God for the people who have put in so much effort & whom i love very much
denise mianjun jamies beibei cherie suss jamie & those who shd noe who they r :)

Thank you for serving your class. I'm very touched!

2009-08-13T05:12:00.001-07:00

Today was a great day :) Heeheeeheee Okay not so much result-wise, but still... my undeserved marks. Yeah um math ... langarts.. got super awesome for summary... okay not super but an a1 lei woooohooooo :D miss teng came back to us to go thru with us, I MISS HER!!! shes the awesome teacher that miraculously managed to make me participate in lang arts. Then ih, haha ms wong soooo funny. lunch, chinese :S

well... im still stuck at my b4 ): Haha. i confessed and confessed lowest b3 :P But its okay. I believe God will allow all things to fall into place because i had faith enough to believe that i could get a1 HAHA. (: with faith, we can move mountains. The mountains may move right away, or they may be larger, huger mountains which are so much more worth waiting for :) Chem :S k la 84 but alot of ppl got over 90 so T.T But again only studied the day before so happy YES.

after school prayer meeting. (: it was great. I LOVE YOU CHERIE LEEEEEE !!! then went for tuition.... ended half an hour early went to west mall bought a book called God's smuggler (: its awesome! like heavenly man. yeah bought hannahs birthday gift and read the book awhile and went pioneer meant jamie ate chicky rice at 5.55 chionggg 6 min record!! then went for pm whr maai n brose came. prayed with maai :) great great awesome effort you put in!!!!

Then dad fetched me home n im gonna sleep soon n wake up abit later do qt n go back to sleep. funfair tmr, God's grace! (:

2009-08-12T05:37:00.000-07:00

HIIII. Okay today was like ................. BIO, quiz. fine. (: even though it was based on my like one and a half week ago memory haha. And CC.... memorising chinese poems in process... Math! (: Okay well. i did not reach bens target or my target for the matter. But since i only studied the day before i really know i dont deserve it (: Praise God!!!! Minqhee did so well :) she's really shining man!! :DDDDDD proud proud proud of her! Haha then had lunch ih global classroom briefing lang arts. stayed in school with mian and memorised poem + did phy 8.2, went to kap to give felicia bs then went jw for pm :) dad fetched me home.

Alotta stuff to get done tonight! God help me please!!

(:

2009-08-11T06:01:00.000-07:00

Hello :) Woke up at like 5:S couldn't sleep bugging dream haha. Then went to school chatted with suss blablabla yeah then PE = basketball = fun although poor thumb hurt ): then chinese just prep for chinese sia presentation, then la prep for la sia presentation. Its nearly over. Thank God.

Then lunch then math, trigo. chem, did chem cal ws, bio, heart. makes my heart feel weird haha :s Yeah then cca. Then went to jw church for prayer meeting.

Stepping inside e house of God on a week day always feel awesome amazing awesome. :)

2009-08-10T01:54:00.000-07:00

Haii woke up 9.40 eat cereal watch jonas talk on phone eat lunch (fats again), then slackslackslack 3 start doing project n hw. Wanna go pm today ): but i shall spend time with mum and dad. really really wanna pray. Haiii. such a hard week again, feels harder than last week. Can't do it on my own, help me God please. Doing work now. Feeling really couped up. Needa jog or something.

2009-08-09T07:51:00.001-07:00

Today was a good day. Coincidentally my last day of fun. :( Discipline! Okay haha yeah woke up at 4.30 :/ cos my nap turned into a sleep so woke up to do qt. Yeah then went to svc met yx and ry. Prayer meeting was good :) Yixuan you're on fireeee! :-D Service was... even better!! My gosh now i finally know the answers. Christians out there always say "i dont believe it needs to be loud to feel e presence" HA-HA rubbish!!! Go read your bible. The whole church jumped.. almost all which was pretty much amazing. Then all of us knelt down. and BABY DEDICATION! Ooooo tigger you're so cute ahhahaa.

after that went for lunch with ppl and then "shopping" with rui felicia darren and faith. good fellowship, failed movie. bumped into xingying, n309 dudes, cheryl husband and jiayi. (lol). went to borders read kiddy books. Saw someones parents and shuai brudder. Stayed till 7, mrted to yingyans house for her to gimme chem tuition. 8-10, went home. Here now. Sneezing like mad. Needta do qt and rest. Bye! (:

ps. i saw 3 transsexuals today. hahaha in wisma.

2009-08-08T04:51:00.001-07:00

HELLO! (: cell wat great. woke up at 10 and watch jonas~~ my mum was scanning in photos to put on facebook HAHAHAHA -.- cg was... an amazing message :) afterwards ate carrot cake spas with eve n human gigglesssss :D ahaha. wanted to change to livejournal... but technology is too complicated for me! forget it!

AHAHAHA thanks maai for giving me the rouge thing :) it was like ... in a keychain so i was wondering why the box had like 'ingredients' on it LOL, till i realised what it was, thanks maai i loveeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee it!! :D! anna sui is cool.

Haha k bb now gonna nap then qt then sleep haha ehmgosh so fat

2009-08-07T07:31:00.000-07:00

Today was a discouraging day actually. Really felt so tired of trying to hype up the class. I guess everyone in bom has felt that way before. But when i think about it again, i guess thats why God tested me so long in waiting for my connect group to grow. Its the same thing in school and church. It always is.

My connect group has gone through ups and downs. 304 has gone through ups and downs. My connect has had its victories. 304 has had its victories. My connect group has had its (many) failures, 304 has had its... fewer failures. My connect group has required me to sacrifice, sacrifice, sacrifice. 304 has required me to sacrifice, sacrifice sacrifice. My connect group has required me to give, give, give. 304 has required me to give, give, give.

Sometimes i've hated these jobs so much. I've just hated hated hated and wanted to escape from all the responsibilities because i am not naturally skilled to be a responsibility type of person. I've failed again and again and again and again and again at doing so many things and each time it is such a huge blow because i feel all eyes are looking at my failures and just thinking "shes not good enough"

I've hated the fact that sometimes people everywhere, including myself are just too stupid to realise the truth on our own, and hated the fact that they hate me for trying to tell them whats right.

But God reminded me again and again... Of how much He loved me. And that same love He used to love me i have to love the people with. its not so much about me anymore, my strengths, my failures, wtvwtvwtv, it's about God. Because i know He has placed me in a position for something, and that He can strip me from that position in no time at all. But if He as left me there and encouraged me to press on, i have to. If He strips me of my position one day, He's still God... and He still rules.

I must love God more everyday. But i must also love my people more everyday. How can i expect a revival and for people to experience God's love if i do not even have a great enough love for the people? I know God makes every sacrifice worth it. And they really are very, very, amazing people. (:

I love you my dearest connect group & dearest 304. :)

2009-08-07T05:11:00.000-07:00

TODAY WAS FUN!:)

mascot session hahaa, DEBB LOOKED SO... quote councillor "SCARY" lollll!!!!!! then went bugis eat bk and iceskating at kallang :) super fun haha!!! then cabbed down to vivo to watch gi joe which was AWESOMEEEEE i love it. hhaahahha.

bumped into ppl today :/ weirdest was like mrs tan, yes, our math teacher. lol. and cher eunice laiteng at vivo!!:D and ariel n ny grls at ice skating haha.

o well. time to eat my eggs n do qt then chi project :)

2009-08-06T06:37:00.000-07:00

BLOCKS ARE OVER!

Haha what else can i say :P Thank God for getting me through these 4 days. Totally started day before preparation for half the papers, but i believe God is faithful, and this will be my testimony. :) Haha yeah today after paper went to coro to eat golden rooster! And bought flag tattoos :) then met chermain at coro bus stop and we went to queensway to check out class t stuff. Met the basketballers on the bus haha fun ride. Confirmed the shirt in like 10 minutes woo and then bought ice cream yoghurt :D my favourite!!! Haha and then we like cabbed to redhill cos the uncle so grumpy, then trained to raffles place, then cabbed to cine to watch harry potter . Went in 15 min late HAHAHAA and chermain and jamie were so nice to rewatch, and chermain missed out the first like 10 min of the first time and we missed it again HAAHAAA thanks i love the 2 of you :D

Bused home after that at a new bus stop which i never knew 171 went lol. Thx ah james. Back home at 9 just ate dinner gonna qt now and another fun day tomorrow. Still counting on Your strength Jesus!!! Keep pressing on.

2009-08-05T05:12:00.000-07:00

Gosh please pray for me i feel kinda sickly now, NEED AN A1 FOR CHEM TOMORROW!! (:

God i have confessed prayed and believed please help me get well in 7 minutes... so that i can study tonight. Ahhhh. (: I finally downloaded new internet... cant believe i didnt know i was using ancient internet explorer 6 haha. this is so much faster im so slow -.- i want to get a webcam&mike for this laptop :) :) pleaseee daddy!

getting a new bottle too!! yay well at least i kept my last one for nearly a year before i lost it. lol. i kept it through obs, so i have passed my test i think haha.

I can't do it on my own,
Cos in You i've found, my destiny(:

2009-08-04T22:01:00.000-07:00

Math today was... quite easy. Lol BUT. I FORGOT TO DO E LAST 2 QUESTIONS TILL I HAD 3 MIN LEFT ):

panicpanic. Im so sure i could have gotten full marks. Hai. Really God's grace. But i asked God for 90%, so i guess its my fault only. :)

last paper tmr, really need help for that!!! gg out with some ppl tmr after school, 304love :D

2009-08-04T03:08:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JUSTIN !!!!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JACINTA!!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY BEVERLYYYYY!!!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY XINYI!!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHARLENE!!

Haha well lotsa birthdays today. :) Not like any of them can see my wishes but if i happen to unlock after eoys end :S Haha. Anw happy birthday mao!!! i have no idea what to get you but today i just send my blessings towards you for being such a great friend.. .. haha.

Chinese was surprisingly awesome hahaha.
Physics was... ... HAHAHA!!! But i'm not of the world, so God's plan is always here for me one way or another :)

math tomorrow, alr did 4 hours of math today gonna qt and do another 2 hours more!
then tmr is just muggin as much chem as i can and then IM FREEEEEE !

time to shine :)

2009-08-03T04:44:00.000-07:00

I'm having arm aches cos of unconsciously hugging giggle throughout the night. :( heeeheee.

Haha, thanks for the songs.

I really dont know what to do about physics. Jesus, all to You!

2009-08-02T23:38:00.000-07:00

3 papers down. wah it was really God's grace. Will keep having faith.

now to tackle the harder and super unprepared papers, God it's your battle not mine (:

2009-08-02T01:47:00.000-07:00

Service was awesome today... I cried like one hundred million times after looking at all the vids and stuff. Never felt such a great love for chc before, it's indeed the best church on earth. (: We're the people who arent ultra-liberal, nor ultra-conservative. And i believe this church is going to SHAKE THE WORLD.

And i want to be part of it.
It's 5 pm didnt get much studying done this weekend.
Was kinda wishing i would get sick but then i remembered that i really really want to see God's miracles work in my life. Cos like dr alex abraham said today "Don't measure what God can do"

I'm exhausted but i know my God is good and He's going to use me as long as i trust in Him.
Help me God, please.

I LOVE YOU CITYHARVEST!
Happy happy 20th anniversary :), you're gonna change the world!! we're gonna change the world.

2009-07-31T17:59:00.000-07:00

Yesterday when i came home after the amazing stuff, I found a note on my table. When i looked to the right, I saw a build-a-bear on the floor!!!:O

THANK YOU!(: you made my day.

But most importantly, i thank God for making my day yesterday!

2009-07-31T06:59:00.000-07:00

TODAY WAS :O

:O

:O
:O

!!!!
?!?!?!:DD

Amazing.
Heeheee.
Best birthday of my life.
First time in my life i would actually say that.
Thanks 304 for the bday song and some presents :)
thanks 205 for the huge cake which rita finished off and the amazingly loudly embarrassing birthday song in the canteen -.-
Thanks hannah for eating cold rock with me after school
Thanks .... yixuan and anlynn for being so weird during tuition
and most imptly
thanks
Yixuan chelsea rui shannon meme greg wenglin mindy rose felicia ambrose rita anlynn!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I LUV U GUYS!!!
i cant believe how much i cried today.
thanks for the cake
thanks for the song
thanks for the thanks with the tears
thanks for taking away my headache and stress for tonight!!!
:D:D:D:D

2009-07-30T02:21:00.001-07:00

Hellooo. Haha yeah today woke up with my mind whirring didnt get deep sleep. couldnt really sleep when i reached school also. Mmmmm lessons were okay, very fast. Haha. Learnt alot of stuff today. Went for tuition after school. Learnt ALOT. Thank God for ben. Haha. kk taking like a one hour break now :s guilty guilty to learnt my brain rest cos tonight is finish maths night :-)

TMR. Is a long but short day. Ice cream with steph, physics tuition, dinner with rents, qt, sleep. Sat waking up 8 am to go yingyans house so she can give me 3 hours of chem tuition. THANKS:D!!!

Okay bye! Strength of God is all i need, cos honoring You is all that matters now. :)

2009-07-29T03:14:00.001-07:00

HIHIHIHI I AM A HAPPY GIRL !!! Yeahhh well like school was... okay :) God helped me through, alot. And i wasnt even tired... it was so weird Haha. either that or the teachers have become less boring haha. Yeah bio spa was...preeeety okay, hope my graph was right D: Haha yeah then math log quiz which i thought i could escape from taking cos i din go school last mon... -.- haha yeah but i gt full marks :D thank God. my surds quiz would kill me. Yeah then cc lecture, interesting... haha. seriously. then lunch um ih and then la. passed my assignment, gonna redo!! hope it comes out even better :)

went to kap to withdraw money and bumped into krys HAHA. yeah then went home and slept for half an hour and miraculously had enough discipline to get up. Then studied abt 2h55 min :D straight, no distractions no nothing omg awesomeness hahaa. Yeah kk gonna rest do qt then its back to work!!! Im sucha happy girl. :)

Ps. anyone wanna go acsi foa with me? Stupid timothy. i'm getting you back to church for this. and can u believe it he used to go chc childrens church in p2 OMG HAHA !!

2009-07-28T01:22:00.000-07:00

HEYOOOO. Okay skoool was fast. didnt take pe. Which resulted in getting insulted by carrie :( hahahaha. erm chinese, gg thru mock paper. La, socratic seminar, went preeeeety well many excellents!!! Lunch pooped with suss HAHAHA Yeah then chem, luv revision dun like mole :( must learn how to luv it. Then math, circles quiz pretty easy then revision, recess, did phy sia, then bio, human heart.

after school stayed back do phy sia but cam ran out of batt omg ):
Haha yeah well God is good i believe it'll be done tmr :)

Yeahhh kay to study in 5 min!

2009-07-27T07:27:00.000-07:00

Hello :) Today woke up lazily. Love my bolster too much.. its like a magnetic attraction to my bed. Should have bought it after blocks haha. YEAH lessons were fast like zoom zoom zoom zzooooommmm, gosh i wish they hadnt cancelled cross country now there some... .... competitions. Should be fun, but whr got time! ): After school went for tuition was really headache-ing away. Even qt it was killing me but right after, IT ENDED :p as predicted. lousy devil hahahaha. Yeah welll... i'm not gg cca tmr.

Tomorrow theres:
Circles quiz. Which we had to self study the whole topic (wahoooo, feel forturnate)
socratic seminar. and our poem is about TV. omg weird poem it keeps giving me the creeps.

Wed:
Bio SPA

Haiiiiii. Its just one week. One week. God finally gave me something i wanted to do. Now i guess its time to put in the backbreaking effort to get it. I CAN DO ALL THINGS THROUGH CHRIST WHO STRENGTHENS ME !! :-)

Im going into isolation till thurs . Need a break from all the talk. Yeah blablabla you know who you are. Stop judging. Look at yourselves. At least i made the effort to please God as much as i could after that.

No more divisions within this cell group. Like krys says, if you have nothing better to do than gossip, then just get out of this cg cos this is not God's house if its a house of gossip. And MY GOSH if you claim you're not gossiping. Think again. .....

Looking at all my members problems, n lookin at some ppl, i really wonder whats the point of gossiping. If a friendship is going to go stronger because 2 people have something negative to laugh at a person about... Then ha-ha that's not a Godly friendship i know.

PRESSSSS ONNNNNNNNNNNNN! i have lots more to understand.

Okay i have let my fingers rest for 10 min :) back to studying!!!!

2009-07-26T09:11:00.000-07:00

happy birthday dar and law.

u two suck so much but well ive known u two like some of the longest actually with the exception of a few so happy birthday. funny times i spent with you guys in the past. :) and i told you i'll always b first. haha l-o-s-e-r-s.

2009-07-26T08:52:00.000-07:00

Stability.

Balance.

Lol. i guess my spiritual man needs to have a stronger centre of gravity, that stronger upward pull towards God.

I don't know how i'm going to make it through, with it happening well. Now all i'm prepared 4 is for the worst, and God, even if it is the worst, i'm still willing to walk through it. But i don't believe You are a God that fails His people, i know You will lead me through.

I'm so sick of feeling so tired physically. The same time, the same thing every single week. It's getting annoying. I hate being stuck in the same place. GET ME OUT!!!!!

God i don't know what to do...
I don't know what to do...

Parents. Today was really contemplating asking my parents to church since they alr dropped me at expo. But then i realised i havent been pleasing them so much.
Ngiah.

Whatever. I know i'll be successful if i keep hanging on through adversary. Cos isnt that what i said at the start of this term that i wanted to learn how to fully depend on God?

Please God... let me be that light for Your glory.. Stretch me.

I need physical strength so much. So much.

I know You will give it to me.

2009-07-26T00:02:00.000-07:00

HELLO. quick post... K ytd was cg good msg!!! At night tried to study managed.. ABIT but was really battling away. morning sent sis off went all e way from t3 to t1 BUT POPEYES WAS NOT HAVIN MASHED POTATO I WAS SO ANGRY @@@@@@@@@@@@@@

haha.. yeah then dad bought me belgian chocolates worth 46 bucks on discount :) and 4 lollipops for matt dar and laws bday!! ahhaha. dad sent me to expo and service was great.... I was really distracted but i guess the presence of God doesnt need the natural to be going to smoothly to change lives.

I hope this week turns out well... Quite a stress week. But God's with me, whom shall i fear?

2009-07-24T02:55:00.000-07:00

Hellooo............. im back at 5.30 :D gg to eat do qt and then go for tuition. ROARR.

anw today was an.. AWESOME DAY.
even though, i did not get full marks for math quiz :(
Broke my awesome streak

and then.
I failed a chem quiz...

Lol the defeat i was gg thru was totally.. ..... .............
Hai God i need to shine :(
after school practised teachers day and the audition went quite well:D
then after we did teachers day banner painting till abt 5 and then went home with suss.

Mmm yeah thats abt all. I really need a breakthrough in my studies. This crap results cant go on. Please help me God, i know its not my ability at all, but all You :(

ps. cherie n jamies amusin story.:D

2009-07-23T07:35:00.000-07:00

Do IH As from 8.30pm till.. wat 11? Then after that homework. Then study for chem (possible) quiz, which is not even tested in block test. -.- ... Math... Trust God one billion for that. and if im alive after that, do revision.

tomorrow, school till 2.35, teachers day auddition till abt 4.30, physics sia till... we finish.. then phy tuition at 8.30.

...
...
...
...

Thus, i have come to a conclusion that , TOMORROWS GONNA BE AN AWESOME DAY!!
because if its so hard, how can God not be with me? :)

2009-07-23T02:37:00.000-07:00

Hello ! Well yeah today = thurs = preeeetttty good. Mmhmmm. Just a lot of stuff to do. I dont seem to know what to say anymore Hahaha... Well i slept at 12.40, unintentionally with the lights on and like at a 30 degree angle haha. so today... i was really awake. Chem lab was titration = fun fun!! Yeahhh zha jiang mian embarrassing incident susss !! >:( Haha . Um after school practised teachers day audition till 2 and then went for math tuition Yay.

Okay yeah gtg do ih assignment now Cya.
Surds quiz tmr, she just told us today!
Just work.. work.. work..
On the bright side. No CCA next friday and tuition hopefully at night so steph is treating out to iceeeecreeeeam YAY
(:

2009-07-22T05:44:00.000-07:00

HELLO. Oh gosh i was prepared to die of tiredness. Yeah i kinda was stoned during bs but after i came home n did qt... WAAA IM SOO AWAKE. YES. this is the kind of qt im meant to have. gr8 :)

I want to have faith in God.
But more than anything, i want to have the faith OF God. :)

2009-07-21T09:50:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SUMEI !

Even though you cant see this cos i just refuse to invite you. When i unlock it again you can. Oh my gosh this idiot dreamt of me just Haha. Yeah well. We celebrated her birthday a day early and she was so... Red... -.- Lol. Yeah.. Well :)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY YTD XY!

Same here same here. thanks for being a great friend! :)

2009-07-21T02:12:00.000-07:00

HELLO. Yeah um back to school and i missed bio and physics and i was totally LOST. !! Sigh. I dont know what else to say. Love 304 for being so cooperative during assembly n recess. thanks guys (:

Bye!

2009-07-20T00:41:00.000-07:00

8540 words later, we're done with IH SIA. woohoo.

COMPLETE n GONE FOREVER!

ih sia
bio sia
chem sia
math sia

Nearly doneeee

Phy sia
La sia
Chi sia

Yay.
im very frustrated.

2009-07-19T05:45:00.001-07:00

By God's grace, i'm not sick, but i injured my foot, so i'm not going school tmrz. And for once i dont feel the LEAST bit of guilt usually when i dont go to school even when i'm sick i feel soooooooo guilty but i dont this time which means its just so God-given :D

2009-07-19T03:58:00.000-07:00

Hellooooooooooooooo. Okay Krys got me motivated to study. Haiii its just 2 weeks ive gotten through 7 before why'm i just so afraid to get into it. These 2 weeks shall just be hardcore. No slackin no anything.... It's a sacrifice i've gotta make. I believe God will make it the best even though it may seem like its going to be the worst.

Dont call me till my exams r over.

JULIEEE.
YOU'VE CONFESSED.
AND UR GONNA GET IT.
when u start moving in the practical and in the spiritual. :-)

2009-07-18T08:04:00.001-07:00

Lockin up for awhile.

Need to study.

2009-07-18T05:45:00.001-07:00

So many questions. So many doubts. And i guess some people out in the world just dont know what their missing out on, thinking they know so much, being so religious and not looking at the heart of God, at what God speaks to them.

Its so sad some people just base their lives on religious ways rather than listening to what the heart of God has to say. It so sad some people only know how to read the words from the Bible, but not even know when God is speaking to them. Its so sad how some people think that their ways are right, but they simply have no testimony to show it. Its so sad some people never ever get to experience the manifest form of God, and never learn how to do even the smallest things through the Holy Spirit. Its so sad some people can't even find the Holy Spirit every week and be touched by it to tears.

And by religious ways i dont mean religious pharisees. I just mean looking only at the surface of what the word has to say, thinking and interpreting through your own means. Tell me something new when the logos word becomes a rhema.

God, is a God of emotions. God is a God of manifestation. Ever trembled under the power of the Holy Spirit? Ever flew back when the power of God just slammed down on you? Ever FELT the demons being delivered out of you to realise what a warrior God is? Ever prayed for someone who was smiling and happy till the Holy spirit touched them to tears?

Love the word of God, analyse the word of God, read the word of God, study the word of God. You can think you understand and analyse everything with the word of God, but if its using your own mind, your own heard, your own analysis skills, it'll never work. Till you learn to read the word of God using God's eyes and reading it flowing through the heart of God, then perhaps the religious ways would be less and more love would come out of it, and people would actually believe.

I thank God that He placed me in a church with so much opposition, so much persecution. I love it. Haha guess what pplz if you're in a church and it hasnt even been persecuted before, you're not in the total heart of God. You may be in the will of God, but not the heart of Him. Stop being so religious, stop being such cowards, stop being so full of doubts, stop judging based upon a few people, stop trying to convince me with logos, but convince me with rhema. Show me the huge revival, and perhaps then people can tell me i'm wrong. But till then, guess what city harvest is just going to grow bigger, and bigger, not in quantity but in quality, to please the heart of Jesus! :)

Stop trying to please men, start trying to please God.

And that, was a blog post which the Holy Spirit flowed through me. How do i know? Faith. I guess anyone out there can say "faith". But to me faith isnt a logos, its a rhema, its a power from God, it has substance. How many people out there actually understand faith? And no not the meaning of it, anyone knows the meaning of it hebrews 11:1, but how many of you can know its in you. :)

ps. this post is not directed specifically at anyone, just a general mindset i learnt from talking to many people.

2009-07-18T05:16:00.001-07:00

Hahaaaaaaaa Wellllll . I dont know what to say. Who knew leaning and trusting completely in God could be so so so hard. Well. I'm going to do it.

2009-07-16T04:58:00.000-07:00

H8 it how when the devil knows that you won't be affected by what non children of God think that He starts creating division within the own House.

Devil i'm so angry at you. go away. I'm a warrior and i'm fighting :)

2009-07-16T04:04:00.000-07:00

Hellooooooooooooooo I'm slackin off for a few min during follow up time cos meme's doin something. ANYWAY. I FINALLY STARTED STUDYING AFTER 1.5 weeks of procrastination. done 3 hours so far. haiiii NEED TO WORK HARDER. i realised i really dont know how to do alot of things o man :( But God's sufficient enough for me i know that.

Yes so like IH SIA HAS BEEN POSTPONED TO NEXT MONDAY! Haha. :) i love living a life in God's kingdom. throughout these 2 weeks ive really learnt that God never ever does put stuff on you that you cant take. thats why next time alot of stuff comes on, i'm going to handle it calmly. Yeah.... Well school today! Was... english unsw first period. haha first time i actually did e whole paper. then la lesson, finished e speeches. then IH, watched finish Sicko, SUCHA GOOD DOCUMENTARY HAHA

then lunchhhhhh, draggin steph to popz to spend money with me $$$$$$$$ :D
CHINESE, CHEM. GO HOME. STUDY. YAYAYAYAYAY

i luv life. God is my all. :-)

2009-07-15T05:40:00.000-07:00

Let me just sum up today, wednesday.

School was goooood.
Heeehee Cherie = Giant Genius *PUKES* .. so we changed it to SHORT N STUPID HAAHAHAHAH. i agree. thanks. yes then blablabla la speech omg was super chuan but hope i got e votes i need ;D yessss. okay after that went to krys house for bs. isaac and his loser calculator phone. lol nvm i had a good time krys n i plan to go for some weirdo art class... if we manage to get off the waiting list hahahaha. Bs was ... good. Reminder i need :) Please dont ever let me go past the place of repentance God!!!!!

Gonna nap abit, do follow up then really... try to study. i cannot continue on like this. i cannot disappoint God or my parents in my results... Please God... i'm leaning on You in everything. because i can't do it on my own already. and You will never fail me.

My eyes really hurt. Byeeeee :-)

2009-07-14T05:43:00.001-07:00

BZBBZBBZBBZBBZZ.

Chionging IH SIA.
needta be faithful in follo up!!

eyes have been hurting all day.
everyones sick.
need to stay strong
PLEASE PROTECTTT MEEEEEEEEE JESUS!!!!!!

2009-07-13T02:32:00.001-07:00

Wishlist (since people have been asking)

1) PAJAMAS. I'm serious. mine has 10 holes and is like 9 years old. Bought it when i was 7 in south africa. I only like silky kind cos cotton makes it toooooo hot to sleep. and no buttons.

2)PHOTOS. just develop photos where i look reasonably good with blue tac so i can decorate my wall cos its so plain and yellow.

3) RESULTs. haha. well. i can only give myself that there, please God.

Okay. nothin else. just hope that ill have done enuff revision to not be mugging. which its quite impossible... because there's never enough revision.

2009-07-11T23:58:00.001-07:00

HELLO! SUNDAY MMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM. Yeah well the past 2 days have been hard. But i shant elaborate. A.R Bernard was gr888888888888888. Prophet, Priest, King! That's what i want to be! went to eat carrot cake (HAHA) with meme after svc YEAHHH shes so fun to bully (Y)

Feeling... the fire of the Holy Ghost :) need to hang on and keep hangin on.

2009-07-11T04:08:00.000-07:00

Heyyy. (: james came to my house arnd 12 and we watched videos n stuff then we bused to williams house and we talked alot on the way there. Cell was gr8... Must really work on my parents!

2009-07-10T08:21:00.000-07:00

Hiiiiiiiii. IM TIRED. but today was AWESOME! :D first i had fun in schooooooooooooooooooool. then after school went to yx house for physics tuition, YAYYYYYYYYYYYY , awesome. then after went kap met lynn n brose and we went btp to kfc for dinnner. then we bused to krys house... okay we bused halfway and me n lynn cabbed AHAHAH. stopped halfway up the hill cos rui n rita walking down. then rui went home n we went krys house. krys gave us chem tuition!!! YAY!!!!!! thanks man. then met isaac (the loser who waited 15 min down there) and we went to run. run. run. cam... ugly... whored.. at chelseas house and epic fail ah... okay 2 of us only lol. then we talked back n .. HAHAHAA. okay. looks like isaac n i hav some repenting to do lol. isaac chionged back, brose went home, krys n i ran back. hahaha. YEAH. FUN DAY LEARNT LOTS. MOTIVATED!(:

2009-07-09T02:04:00.000-07:00

Hiiiiiii. Thursdays over. Okay so my mugging plan failed last night because... well i told my dad to wake me up at 10.20.... and i said "if you don't wake me up i'll kill you". hahaha. looks like i didnt :P Yeah well woke up at 1am by mandys call, did abit of chinese sia, she did a bit too much HAHAHAHAHA !! omg . Lol skoooool was okay.

chem lab, luv titration! Haha so fun. Yeah and then Mathhh. graphs blablabla. then chinese, finished all the speeches today. then lunch. then ih, interesting. then la, FUN!!! we played.... "just a minute" AHAHAHAHA omgosh it was so so so fun :D su-an is amazing HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA hilarious!!

Yezzzzzzzzz okay then went for tuition bought my fizzy orange kiwi drink ;) i likeeeeee. then went home, bought carrot cake on the way.

o my gosh. im so tireeeed. and seriously i have no one to call. olivias gg for tuition. yx never reply. eveeee at nite. chels tmr nite. ah...vyeah.

physics tuition tmr , im kinda excited :D

gonna rest for now n then go eat dinner n then start mugging (doing hw, since i refused to do during lunch HAHA).. wasted too much time ytd!!

2009-07-08T05:47:00.000-07:00

Since... 1 person i planned to call is busy, another refuses to answer, another one didnt reply and 3 of them i'm taking a break off, and 1 has been given to another person, and 1 i'm calling later and another i'm calling tomorrow.... I shall take some time off to share the good stuff i learnt today. This is the first time in a week i havent felt tired after doing qt but totally awake, which is what i'm supposed to feel, hurrrrray!

Faith is different from hope.
Faith is for the present, hope is for the future.
your faith is at your core, not your mind
like a tree trunk, even if you chop of a leaf or branch or two, it will still survive. but if you chop it at its trunk cross-section, you cut through the core and leave the stump, it will die for sure.
to believe with the heart is to believe in your spirit!!!
head-faith is just intellectual mental acceptance, real faith is built on spiritual truth and acceptance.
faith produces a substance.
just like in chemistry, you are the test tube of ... blabla... then you add in sodium carbonate (faith), and a white ppt is formed.
the white ppt is SOLID. just as your faith is solid.

Genuine faith always produces feelings of faith. I want that faith feeling!

'If you dont have the feeling of faith,
you will surely fall when you
attempt something bigger than your abilities' -pastor phil

and a verse i liked today (:

9 That You may say to the prisoners, ‘Go forth,’
To those who are in darkness, ‘Show yourselves.’
“ They shall feed along the roads,
And their pastures shall be on all desolate heights.
10 They shall neither hunger nor thirst,
Neither heat nor sun shall strike them;
For He who has mercy on them will lead them,
Even by the springs of water He will guide them.
11 I will make each of My mountains a road,
And My highways shall be elevated.

If you've got that real faith, and God is truly your center then like the verse says, you can be homeless, living on the roads... meaning lonely, out in the wilderness, alone, and you'll still be filled to the fullest. If God is your centre, you can be desolate, you can be experiencing ups and downs, but your soul will always be living in the pastures. Cos God says you wont hunger or thirst, He says He'll give you everything you need, He says nothing can harm you. And He says He'll make every mountain, every onstacle, a road to the running towards the finish line of meeting Jesus :)

2009-07-08T03:27:00.000-07:00

HI. HI. HI. :DDDD Today was well... more screwed up in front, but thankfully God really met my needs :) TODAY ARE MY AWESOMEST FRIEND AND FUNNIEST FRIENDS BDAY! Eve and steph respectively hahhaaaaaaaa :D

Yeah well spent the morning molesting stephs presents lol :P first was chinese, more n more speeches. then lang arts, read each others speeches and then our group suddenly ended up talking about toilets in china. omgosh. must be cheries fault. physics lab, haha not toooo bad. lunch, accompanied suss to eat then we went to library to read comics! o and the some class was selling earrings :) bought these cross ones for 2.50, :D!!!!!

math next was. :/ someone owes me my math ws. and then bio ... ... not bad actually. yeah okay so im done with that. after school went krys house bs. FINALLY!!! woooo todays lesson was about faith :) needed that so so so so so much.

yes chatted and watched tv with krys after that. HAHHA HANDSOME ONG AND DANGEROUS DAN. omgosh ewwww!!

lol yeah okay, lotsa stuff to do. need to move with the faith feeling :)

the world says.... Seeing is believing
children of God say.... Believing, is seeing :)

2009-07-07T02:25:00.000-07:00

PE was not bad. Basketball. Dodo-dodo-dodo-dodo-dodo. We lost despite having taiwan guys in our team (explains how ... we are HAHA) mian and cherie had to do double forfeit OK

then wuz chinese suss volunteered us yes thank you. it was spastic but fun :) then we had bio prac which i didnt screw up. lunch observing at 3/4 table and then visiting ziwei in the sickbay. IH was quick. Then LA, fun, small group speech presentation. Then we celebrated the recent birthdays and umm celebrated taiwan people byebye! Bye daosheng, zhonghan and xuwei! Heehee must write their names to rmb when i grow up.

Recess was me carrying cherie and cherie carrying me (wtp) around... attempting to throw each other into the grass patch. Assembly was discussing chers day... :)

after school went to kap gave wenglin rose bs. meme was thr along with the usual. celebrated rose's birthday and went home. Slacking now... my mugging plan is out so i guess its just HANG IN THERE for 3-4 weeks. yup.

Many things seem to be going wrong. So many. But well... i'm not feeling the happiest, but i'm really at peace. and i'm actually feeling joy. i guess happiness and joy are different. joy lasts throughout any circumstance. I guess thats really me walking where Jesus is and myself being moulded.

Give me strength!

2009-07-06T05:21:00.001-07:00

Haha wow that was the best qt ive had in days. All you need is a touch from God to charge things up again. :) Yes well i'm really really happy i see the souls coming in and i'm going to tackle the devil down! Thanks dear members for working so so hard, putting in so much effort!

On a... more.. SHOCKING note. yingyan got full marks for IB. 45 points people. Arent i so lucky to have someone like this teaching me on saturday nights HAHAHAHAAAAA

2009-07-05T18:09:00.000-07:00

Amazing song. Best i've heard in awhile :D
All the songs by New life worship are pretty good.
It's really fresh, their singing.
Different from true worshippers, delirious, starfield, or hillsong.

It's... really nice.

2009-07-05T17:44:00.000-07:00

x. See. I really have nothing to blog abt anymore. (:

Jesus is fighting for me...
Jesus is fighting for me.

2009-07-05T10:03:00.001-07:00

I. took away the skin. COS. i'm really tired. AND. i dont wanna blog negative things. BUT. i dont wanna forget about this part of my life. SO. i will try to be positive.

Ha....... Dam happy... connect group attendance reached 13 ytd :O woohooo....... Really drained. Need to have that touch again. Need a balance. People r turning against me... thats an awesome thing :p

2009-07-02T05:53:00.000-07:00

Ahhh... That was not say an amazing qt... cos i was in too much.. physical pain throughout. HAHA yeah but i thank God thank everyone nags at me over and over again, cos its really the stuff thats repeated that stays in ur mind. And now.. it's really a season for my harvest la... But yeah there's 2 outcomes during this season 1) the harvest comes in so much and all stay 2) you burn out, the harvest goes, and you're stuck... Thank God He reminded me before any feelings of burning out ever drifted in... that i always have to go back to my first Love :)

2009-07-02T02:07:00.000-07:00

HHHHHHHHHELLO!!!!!! TODAY WAS FUNN FUNN !! Haha morning woke up went high !! then then me & clep girls went to fetch taiwan students. (HAHA the guys arent as ugly as expected... they're so much better than the china guy last time!) attitude-wise too.... im not that outward-judging ok! Haha. Yeah then was ERRRRRR Math :S Ha-Ha i luv math!! :-)) ) ) )) )) then langarts, quite fun with some weird julius caesar cloze and then IH... which is well always fun. Then lunch, bought strawberry milk(ARGHHHHHHHH) lol and went around to do stuff. then chi, continued speech presentation... and in the middle of chermains speech was temp taking HAHA yeah.. AND DEBORAH HAD A FEVER!!! it was like automatic repel of us and her HAHAHA wherever she walked everyone ducked and hid haha :p for the fun of it la. Then was chem which was... interesting... Why is everyone so :O!! about mole?? maybe ill find out soon... HAHA.

YEZZZZ okay then math tuieeeetion was so awake in long time just more and more transformation of graphs gah and then log!! i love log!!! haha. Ok yeah i shall go finish abit more work now... Feeling really happy :)

2009-07-01T06:20:00.001-07:00

OMG I JUST GT OFF E FONE WITH MINDY! ^^ and off msn with crystal, good news after good news!

Mindy 2 friends for cookie event :D
Crystal bring 2 uk exchange students for svc!!!!!!!
WAHAAAAAAA
WAHAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHAHA
IM SO HAPPI! ^^

Peian might be comin on sat!
yinings coming on sun!
steph might come on sun!
jamie's coming back n staying !!

ROARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR
ROARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR
ROARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR
GOD IS GOOD
LALALALAL
ALL E TIME
LALALLALAAL
haha :D EH yay.
finally after the 15 rejections durin the june hols God shows His glorious ways :)

must continue praying!
for huiqi, jallene, amanda, wenjing, rose!

2009-07-01T03:41:00.000-07:00

Even though many people are falling away currently.... I really just want to say today that i'm so proud of yixuan!!!!!!!!! I'll elaborate on why later ... but this girl is just so amazing. To be able to climb back and give herself to God after all she's been through - you think you're going through alot, unless your family member left you or your parents are fighting... i really think there can be nothing much more testing than what she's been through. The willpower to needed to get over failure and defeat... everyone knows is not easy. The willpower and the love one must have for God to come back again and again even though some of the most horrible situations have happened to you, its really really really so hard.

I need to do my qt now, but just wanna tell u yx i love you and admire you so much! even though when i teach you things i always make it seem like not a big deal, trust me i know what you've gone through is a big deal to you. but that's why i want you to look through God's eyes, which is exactly what i look through when i look at you, and if i'm thinking in God's manner, all i'm thinking is of how this amazing girl managed to put away her shame and her self and just keep on running with me, even though many times she wanted to sit down, to fall back, back time and time again, she always came back.

God's gonna use you so greatly yx, it's the people that have been through the most that God can use the best. Don't be afraid of tough times ahead, just know that God's always with you throughout all of it. You don't need anything else, you just need to know that God is for you and He always will be, as long as you are to him :)

love you yi xuan! i'm really so amazed by you :)

2009-07-01T03:27:00.000-07:00

ok for once i didnt waste my afternoon away. Did 30 questions of math (haha) and called olivia! she's so nice :-)

tonight!
MATH SIA PPT
CHI SIA
LA THINGY ON LMS!

feeling efficient.

2009-06-30T23:41:00.001-07:00

HIIIIIIIIII SCHOOLS COOL LALALALA. Okay today was ERM BIO first lesson. :s omg... wanted to fall asleep. i dont like bio lessons grahhh. But luv the teacher. haha ironic. Then chinese.. CHINESE SPEECH :( i was having pooping syndrome some more it was storming so i was SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO cold haha but it wasnt that bad except my ending was kinda ... -.- and everyone laughed cos i didnt end properly!!:( then math... lalala continued with log. i lyk this topic. then lunch, went canteen watch them eat.. chatted :D so funz mans good way of class bonding the seating arrangement. yeah and then heh IH! ... Okay la. amusing. ms wong is always amusing. La is draw lots to present LA SPEECH ~~~ omgosh i didnt practise one bit but God's so good i didn't get chosen. yijing is darnnnn good. haha. then went to print out stuff and hand in to miss wong. AND WA !!! I MISSED BOM MEETING. bloody i didnt hear it in the morning, no one in my class did and after class we were at outside audi so we didnt hear anything. GRRRRRRRRR im so angry. :( haha yeah but taiwanese students r coming to our class tmr. 2 GUYS 1 GIRL AHAHHAHAHA i smsed suss and she was going high (despo) JK lol. omgosh luckily the clep ppl r forced to take care haha otherwise i might get saboed to take care of em :S

suss wld be glad to. ha. :D

rawrrr was so tempted to go kap cos rose is gg today but ahh well got my awesome friends takin care of her so thx so much rita lynn brose!!!! im going to study now everyones studying so hard i need to mug mug mug. yknow what im jus gonna off my com. cos its too distracting.JIAYOU ME BB!

2009-06-30T09:17:00.000-07:00

PS. I AM 164 CM I GREW I GREW. LETS JUST HOPE THE SCHOOL HEIGHT THINGY ISNT MALFUNCTIONING HEEHEE. or if it is... lets just hope it MADE ME SEEM SHORTER!:D

Haha. yes well... I like what krys just said...

"Have faith! Those people with faith are the happiest! Because they know that everything is possible."

WAHHH. IM HAPPY IM HAPPY!!! Haha. On a sadder note............ Stop cursing. You don't realise how much you break could break your leaders heart. Sometimes people are so self centred you know? Wish they would stop looking at themselves for a moment and just realise how much effort others are putting into them before doing something so rash and just breaking their hearts. Admiration. Hmms. OK BACKTA STUDYIN. im happeh today! and i must b happy (: cos im a person of faith!

2009-06-30T01:59:00.001-07:00

Hellooooooooooo. School was good. Woke up... not that tired actually. haha. yeah carried 7 books and my chem tb to school. found a seat on 171, susanna told me why. COS THERE WERE NO HWACHONG BOYS ON THE BUS. RAHHR. BE MORE MAN LA. -.- Yeah well good im fine with not having extention of school, i like school :D just keep the seats empty and free AHA. Hmm yeah well i feel like im gonna get stoned for that :S Lol yeah so i went to sleepz and then talk with cherie and suss.

PE was BASKETBALL TODAY. BASKETBALL!!! -.- haha. quite fun :D then chinese... presented speeches, mines tmr :D la, fun fun fun! dunno why i was so inspired to answer questions today. Haha cos it was really people related... the challenger disaster.. :( so sad. Haha i realise i can only ans questions during la when it's people related... Shoot. thats good... people-person :D but i need to improve on my gk. Yeah so then FINALLY after 3 hours. Lunch, and we have to sit by class now HAHA so cutez we didnt even do that in pri school. Then Chem, NO QUIZ PTL! started on mole. Then Math, log. then recess.. weird.. lunch then recess hahah:D

then bio... and DISMISSAL. whew. went kap met shannon MEME! chels wenglin rachel. shannon chels bs. Haha... left right after, saw huiqi on the way out. Ho hum...

Yeah okay... they released 2 block test topics today. And teachers day celebration. And dealing with ydff... God please show me how :( I must really mug harder, there's no time julie! in everything, but most importantly, in winning the souls!

2009-06-29T09:08:00.000-07:00

Really need to stop.. wasting time!!!!! Need to realise that i have less time to study for this terms block test than last term ALREADY. shoulda starte 2 weeks ago. Sigh. I really really need to shine. PUSH YOURSELF PUSH YOURSELF.

In other words, praise God for a great follow up today, i really feel my skin becoming thicker but my heart becoming thinner, GUTS MAN, GUTS! Haha. Need to go rehearse chinese speech 1 or 2 more times and study chem. i shall just scare myself. CHEM BLOX IS NEXT WEEK OMGOMGOMGOMGOMG!!!

tomorrow's a longggg day. and i left my file in school. pshhh. :S thank God nothing is due, earliest thurs math isl1. yeahhh and then bs afterwards, YAY. YAY. the harvest is here, we're gonna make sure the explosion comes! GO GO GO MY BELOVED CONNECT GROUP! anything for the souls, anything for the souls.
:D

2009-06-28T23:59:00.000-07:00

HIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII. Okay. school was pretty awesome. Don't ask me what got into me last night, devil playing with my emotions. All the way till i reached school. Mrs Shirlyn Tieh.... Grr... I'm very sorry i filled the form in red but dun need so fierce ma :( say nicely i will also apologise. Haii FORGIVE FORGIVE! And because i was quite off balance i was like nearly tearing after that -.- Gosh, thank You God :)

But things became lots happier after i reached class, went for pm :) And then... then... all the crazy h1n1 rules started coming HAHA. but the awesum things 1) NO FLAGRAISING 2) NO CCA 3) SCHOOL DISMISSAL 1.15 on wed n thurs, WOOHOO. Yeah math first lesson was completely T.T Yeah i was half dead haha then physics, not that bad just gg thru stuff, and omg i got 7/10 for my quiz, 3rd one i passed this year, PTL!! must continue improving:) although i failed e ws.. zzz... need physics tuition!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! mum & dad dunwan. Haha then LA, fun ness! lunch, printing out stuff and work. After that chinese, go thru compre, OMGGG 2nd time i got above 35 HAHAHA YAYY YAYY PTL!!!!!!! then cct went thru h1n1 briefing hahaha

after tat cherie n denise so kindly followed me and then i went home. today needta start mugging and memorising chi speech!! JIAYOU JULIE. SHINE GOD'S LIGHT!

these few days... I really finally feel... Like... i'm .. WHOLE! not in the emotional sense, in the sense i have everything i need. Awesome God... Awesome Jesus... Awesome Holy Spirit... My awesome family who r just so generous and nice, mum and dad spending so much money on me without hesitation last week and jiejie buying all that cheese(HAHAHA BROSE) and amazingly good tasting sauces back from melbourne. MMM. My awesome leader, miss krystle liew. amazing. shes amazing AMAAAZING :D and my awesome connect group... I love them i love them to bits. and my awesome best friends... the four of them... they make my life.. :-) 304 & w445, amazing groups of people God has blessed me with that can cheer me up just by being around them..... AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

I feel so blessed. THANK YOU GOD THANK YOU GOD THANK YOU!

2009-06-28T15:16:00.000-07:00

Hai today................ I fell asleep starting from 10+ last night. Fell asleep crying. Woke up 10.45... hot, annoyed, didnt know what was gg on. Cried again.. fell asleep at 11.15. krys called at 11.23!!!:( im so sad. so annoyed. blarrrrdy devil. and i just slept all the way till now.... not tired anymore at least (weirdly) yeah its 6.18. Woke up... and i cried again. I dont even know what the devil's doing to me. BUT GO AWAY. So... after 6 weeks of not singing it with passion... I sang it and cried my heart out again... I guess its really a song through the wilderness.

Fear not, for i am with you.
Be not dismayed, for i am your God
I will strengthen you,
yes, i will help you,
i will uphold you with my righteous right hand.

isaiah 41:10.

thank God for this verse.
Im going to sleep for 40 min more.
and when i wake up. things are going to change.
today's gonna be an awesome day!
Jiayou julie!

Let Your glory...
Let Your honor..
Shine through us, shine through us!

2009-06-28T04:09:00.001-07:00

IPOD. :(

ah... but i promised myself i wont ever end a post with a sadface unless for sarcasm intentions. I believe i'll find you... God please increase my capacity.

Like what nicolette's blog said, let everything that i do for You, for w445, for my connect group, for 304, for e christians in 304, for greenclub, for everything... let me do it with the simplest, purest of heart. Not wanting glory not wanting honor, but knowing that the love You gave to me is just sufficiently, abundantly more than enough for me.

On a random note, i jogged today.... and i'm pretty alive still.. gonna qt now and gonna make that call that krys asked us to... Please be there Holy Spirit!

2009-06-28T01:53:00.000-07:00

Had an awesome svc today and epicly one small part of what pastor derek talked about is what i typed last night :-D or morning. Haha. Okay i started off the day.... not quite awake or asleep, but quite annoyed. Zz. Yes well svc was great James came :DD! Had an event, and it was quite fun. Wooohooo considering i didnt do anything except watch spas games haha and sissy and this n209 guy dance OMG SO PRO SO KEWL!!! Haha. Krys drove meeee home waha thanks I LEARNT MANY THINGS!! I LUV LEARNING THINGS! INTELLIGENCE! OK now i need to go pray abit to decide abt my plan for the last official rest of my holiday cos my body's really weird now :)

2009-06-27T14:08:00.000-07:00

OMG!!! HAHAHA HERE I AM AGAIN TO SAY I HAD SUCH AN EPICLY AWESOME QT !! !! !! !! !! Ahh well i started at like 3.40am so i was like completely *blur* but it really takes some telling to God that you're willing to crucify your flesh and just pray and spend time with Him no matter what aye :)? Haha YES QT WAS SO AWESOME! Wow when i was praying especially in the area of leading 304 it was like Holy Spirit moving inside of me i was completely.. ON FIREEEEEEEEEEEEE :-D

God please teach me to to crucify my flesh more, not just once or twice or everytime, to be that one that You can dwell in(:

“Therefore listen to me, you men of understanding:
Far be it from God to do wickedness,
And from the Almighty to commit iniquity.

For He repays man according to his work,
And makes man to find a reward according to his way."

Job 34:10-11

LUV THIS VERSE. No i'm not telling you guys to stop blaming God... because usually we don't do that. But the point is that we've really got to stop learning to fall down to the wilderness in our lives. If God did not set out to do wickedness, and the wilderness is what so many young christians deemed 'devil-get-me-down-time' , that would make God really evil. WHICH. He is obviously not. Like the verse says, God repays man according to his work. If during the wilderness, you choose to hang on, you choose to trust Him and not COMPROMISE on any parts, God says that He will make you find your reward.

“For His eyes are on the ways of man,
And He sees all his steps.

There is no darkness nor shadow of death
Where the workers of iniquity may hide themselves.

Job 34:21-22

Ahh... sometimes we really have to remember that God's up there.. watching down, like krys said today, God's an UP-God, not just in mental but also physical, therefore He can always see what lies ahead. God's so big, His eyesight is beyond perfect, And He can always see whats gonna come up right ahead. NO DARKNESS CAN HIDE! God can see everything! And if God can see it, would He be so horrid to let it just come to you for no purpose to batter you down?

Although you say you do not see Him,
Yet justice is before Him, and you must wait for Him.

And now, because He has not punished in His anger,
Nor taken much notice of folly,

Therefore Job opens his mouth in vain;
He multiplies words without knowledge.”

Job 35:14-16

Haha... yeah. i think for me the comforting factor is actually that God always sees us but not that we always see Him yeah? Wait for God. Wait on Him. God, just like job, is not punishing you in anger! He just wants you to wait on Him. And therefore with that concluding sentence that Job opens his mouth in vain - complaining and crying and groaning and every possible complaint ever, simply because He was without the knowledge that God is not causing tribulation in anger, but He's causing tribulation in such a great love... the same for all of us.

Okay :D Job is really such a nice book. Job also teaches us that we haveta hav friends too, cos it's His friends that said all these wise words, HAHA. OK ITS LIKE 5.26 am im waking up in half an hour but revelations cannot wait!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! JULIE IS A SEA OF GALILEE FLOWING WIF LYFE! Give me strength today please God!

2009-06-27T08:32:00.000-07:00

HEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEELO! OMG TODAY IM HAPPYHAPPY^^ slept 4 woke up 10 finished bio poster and completed most of essay. (krys taught me how to edit it :D) and then went leaders meeting PRAYPRAY felt so awesome wahaaaa EMPOWERED then cell group wahaaa EMPOWERED AGAIN! krys kept "Why fear?" and really. WHY FEAR. oh man i was such an idiot. So many lessons learnt today thanks krys. and finally, prayed together as a connect group again :D ahhh from the last time 15-30 second prayers their prayers really have grown so much, can feel the passion now, SO HAPPY! (:

went to orchard with rui and lynn ate dinner and rui left, lynn accompanied me around, THANKS MY AWESOME FWEN i havent bought clothes in so long it was such a joy to actually buy stuff ^^ so much more i coulda bought my crazy sales just make me go high and weird Haha. Bought 4 tops from esprit, and then one top from pull and bear and then shoessssssssssssssssssss :D quite dull but ahh it will last me 2-3 years and its steve madden so its cool.

Im really happy today. finally seeing things through God's eyes, i feel so different ALREADY, but i know there's more self-dependency to get rid off and more of me to be broken, use me God!!!!!

2009-06-26T19:49:00.000-07:00

HELLO. Duhh okay slept at 4 last night looking at sad blog and ahlian blog (HAHAHA). someone was so amused. Yeahh :( But ahh. I MUST REALLY BRING UP THE SCGS GIRLS! My burden my burden my burden. There's so many people who are hurting out there... Worse than those who's parents are fighting, who're having a divorce are those who've had a lovely family before and suddenly one parent just disappears... to Heaven.(hopefully) We really need to help them pick themselves up.

2009-06-26T11:54:00.000-07:00

What would i have become?

What would i have done?

Where would i be?

If You never lifted me

2009-06-26T10:10:00.000-07:00

HIHIHIHIOMGYEAHIMHIGHIGHIGH TOO!

That was such an AWESOME QT!!!!!!! AHHH!!!! AHH!!! (: Okay i was feeling really crappy tonight. As in really really crappy. Worse than pms, cos the crappy this time included heavy annoyance. Haha. I was being a ... OKOK NONO HAHA. Yeah well.... QT was.. just so amazing (: i think people are so dumb to not do qt when they r going thru hard times!! its the time we're you'll feel God the most!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Love this entire chapter of Isaiah
Isaiah 18

1 Woe to the land shadowed with buzzing wings,
Which is beyond the rivers of Ethiopia,
2 Which sends ambassadors by sea,
Even in vessels of reed on the waters, saying,

“ Go, swift messengers, to a nation tall and smooth of skin,
To a people terrible from their beginning onward,
A nation powerful and treading down,
Whose land the rivers divide.”

3 All inhabitants of the world and dwellers on the earth:
When he lifts up a banner on the mountains, you see it;
And when he blows a trumpet, you hear it.
4 For so the LORD said to me,

“ I will take My rest,
And I will look from My dwelling place
Like clear heat in sunshine,
Like a cloud of dew in the heat of harvest.”
5 For before the harvest, when the bud is perfect
And the sour grape is ripening in the flower,
He will both cut off the sprigs with pruning hooks
And take away and cut down the branches.
6 They will be left together for the mountain birds of prey
And for the beasts of the earth;
The birds of prey will summer on them,
And all the beasts of the earth will winter on them.

7 In that time a present will be brought to the LORD of hosts
From[a] a people tall and smooth of skin,
And from a people terrible from their beginning onward,
A nation powerful and treading down,
Whose land the rivers divide—
To the place of the name of the LORD of hosts,
To Mount Zion.

EEEKS AMEN!! Haha yeah so it's like amazing la, like the first bolded part describes how we the world... think we're so powerful, so full of ourselves, our destructiveness. Then God comes in and says to me in the red part that He can only dwell in a place which is pure, thats why He needs to cut off the sprigs and pruning hooks, all the extra stuff and throw it all away. And then after that we're like the TALL people with a tall Inner man and smooth skin without any cracks or bumps or things that arent meant to be thr. Then God reminds us again that we are sinners... But cos Christ love's for us He'll lead us into His dwelling place (:

Praying in tongues is so awesome. Its so so awesome.

2009-06-26T05:33:00.000-07:00

I have not finished bio sia. (...) i do not know what to say. I cut my hair. I bought food from cold storage. My throat still itchy. Getting nagged by my parents - for what, i shall not say. Cos im a nice person. Zzz. Bad mood bad mood bad mood. What shd i do... What shd i do.... Too much to do......

Jesus.... Help :(

2009-06-26T01:14:00.000-07:00

HULLO I have so far only fully completed math sia :S Gah but i havent done the ppt! Okay yeah finished another part of bio sia, really hope i can finish it today so i can be burdenless over the weekend and just mug for fun. Today i need to complete

Find the songs for sing4me,eat4free (Bleah i dont know songs)
finish bio sia
finish chinese speech ( mum's home by God's grace :D)
finish la summary
call olivia, yixuan and melissa

AND THAT ACTUALLY SUMS UP MOST OF WAT I HAVETA DO! WOOOOHOOO.
okay thats actually alot. then i can start mugging cos i know i really need to. and im not gg to iworship tonight :( need to get well i cant afford to fall sick !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-06-25T22:24:00.000-07:00

HEYHIHELLO. Didn't blog yesterday, as predicted (feel like a good girl cos of that) Haha Yeah Okay tuition from 9-11 ytd, finished my circles assignment and did abit of log. Then went to bukit timah market to eat... BY MYSELF. Had hokkien mee and it was SO GOOD!!! best i've ever tasted. Haha. And i found it by myelf. Cos isaac ong effectively replied me 1 hr later and ambrose is like doing shopping in taiwan. Yeah ok then i waited at the bus stop for HALF AN HR then waited for another half an hour upon reaching laitengs house, no worries, i had fun :-D HHAHA

did math sia, really fast, finished quite early played taiti and i lost all e first rounds but then in the end i got 3rd, 2nd, and left the house with a CHAMPION 1st HAHAHA it was victory ok they kept owning me >:( Haha then was meant to meet my papa for some fellowship time since he just came back after a month but he abandoned me so i met my other papa and we went tampines to find a hair shop and ask my mum for money to go shopping but unfortunately mum went home early cos she was sick , get well!! ): haha ate yoshi and tako and fudge brownie for dinner, it cheered me up significantly. haha. thanks for bearing with me!!

went for SOSBS FINALE! AHHH it was so goood good goood :) cant describe it. But when i came home i was thinking crap its so late pls let me do a good qt and it was so good... I finally told God how i was really feeling and He just overwhelmed me and let me know that it's gonna be okay :)

BUT BEFORE THE QT was the treacherous journey of getting home, cos by the time sosbs ended , the last train towards city ENDED omggg hahahha it was soo fun ^^ i love adventures like that cos you know that it'll turn out fine but you just dunno how hahaha!! reached home 1, slept at like 3+++ and woke up at... 1pm today.

had a very interesting series of dreams. dreamt abt everyone i could possible know and woke up feeling so confused. stop laughing mao.

mum's sick and my throats bad so.. i hope i can finish work and go iworshiptonight!! :(((
:P

2009-06-24T16:58:00.000-07:00

I... will be going for tuition in 1 min now :( It's 7.59 am. :( couldn't sleep last night and woke up to early this morning. So annoyed. Boreeeeeeeeeeeeed bored bored BOO BOO BOO BAAA BAAA BEEEEEE. Bleah. What can i say. today's gonna be a long day. I know God's with me.... in fact, that's all i know.

Okay that one minute is now over, good bye! :)

2009-06-24T04:30:00.000-07:00

HEY. today was an.. interesting experience, but tiring... extremely. YA. Haha, went to Canossaville Children's Home to organise a party for the kids for LA SIA. Yes well met the others in school and went to coro to eat golden rooster. (EUNICE TSKTSK) Haha yeah. Then we bused down and started decorating and preparing the cames.

Well i won't go into detail 1) cos i'm too tired 2) i needta do qt 3) dad's home after a month and he came back with 2 stitches on his head (lmao) 4) it's just a whole load of info. But yeah the kids are really friendly and when they are not being friendly... well... they're just being kids so that's acceptable. Met one girl that is sooooooo cute look's like mao's sister ahaha except much smaller and another girl who's sooooooooooo cute too haha!!

Omg i forgot to bring the milo felt soooooooo guilty :( ahhh too messed up man! Sorry mandy! :( Haha Yeah okay so i had fun. I feel exhilaration when i work with kids! But i get tired after awhile... Must work on that. Okay so yeah reached home at 7 , tomorrow's a busy day.

tuition 9-11
math sia 1-5
sosbs 7.30-10.30

Gah. Must count on the strength of God for tomorrow. Much work to finish too. God please guide me thru !!!!!!!

2009-06-23T18:53:00.000-07:00

HEL-LO. Yess i slacked away and had a good sleep instead cos i felt like puking.. Darn -- It's okay, i've just got like half of a few thingS left hahaha. Joy's at my house now, totally couldn't wake up when she came. But yeah there's... blood in my poop again HAHA (dots) it always happens after ...... i realised. Yeah omg hope mum doesnt bring me to the doctor or start applying the lubricants and drinking fibregel again :(

Today going some children's school to organise a party and stufferz, hope that it turns out well and the children have fun :) Be back at night, Arghhhhhhhh. i'm really tired. Yeah well, bye. I'm going to enjoy today as much as possible.

(:

2009-06-23T05:15:00.000-07:00

That was an... inspiring quiet time. Not tears, not Holy Spirit KABOOM! Just.. so.. Inspiring. God spoke to me to do something, now i'm just going to wait for krystle's yes and off i'll go, with or without my fellow comrades :)

Haha Yes VOTD:

"The Spirit of the Lord shall rest upon Him, The Spirit of wisdom and understanding, The Spirit of counsel and might, The Spirit of knowledge and of the fear of the Lord"
Isaiah 11:2

Ahhh Holy Spirit come and rest upon me and move in me greater than You've ever done before! I need those qualities, to become the leader that you want me to be, in church and in school.

Alot of things to do tonight. Need to call some new members, some new friends. Believing that as i set the kingdom of God first, everything will be added. And of course it will... Seriously, when has it not?

SMILE! DARE! COURAGE!:)

CHLOEEE LIEW, YEW R ONE EVIL KID

2009-06-23T01:53:00.000-07:00

YAY finished my part for chem sia. feeling accomplished. Alright, off to find a few articles for chinese and then an early QT today so i can get mum to help me write essay at night (hahah).

Tonight:

BIO SIA Report - Sent mrs wong an email but shes taking too long to reply. I'll just go ahead.

1 chinese book review (2 left!)

Draft out Chinese Speech

LITTLE BIT ONLY.Plus i slept alot today and i'm doing my QT early, SO IM DETERMINED TO FINISH ! Haha and perhaps finish my chinese book too (: LA SIA at canossiaville tomorrow!

2009-06-22T23:17:00.000-07:00

PTL (!!!) Youth Day Fun Fair is postponed omg~~~ Heeeee :D God indeed is so good. Haha. Omg! I feel so happy :) Haha. Glad i decided to stop worrying and let God start moving, He really does amazing things (: Now must buck up, pray more, fast more (when school starts) and believe for more and more amazing things to happen!

Today... Played gunbound. Someone didn't keep their promise. Hmm. :( Yeah but finished my math concept map (except the ones i don't know, will bring for tuition) and finished one chinese book review :) ahh the next one requires alot of creativity, God, please let Your amazing creative juices flow to me :)

SO EXCITED. FINISH WORK. WOO.

2009-06-22T19:52:00.001-07:00

HEY!:-) Okay.... i slept for 10 hours again :S Too tired, throat too itchy, bleaghhh :S Yeah. Okay Today i need God to help me make a commitment to really finish as much work as i can. I don't want to be rushing work on sunday, or even saturday. Okay i just spam coughed into my hot chocolate cos i didnt want it splattering everywhere, HAHAHA but i'm still going to drink it cos it's the last of yixuan's hot chocolate (see i treasure it so much) yum to the chocolate, gross to the germs.

I MUST PRESS ON (: Love the woman with the issue of blood song... we haven't sang that in a long while.

Verse Of The Day For yesterday :)

"Look, i go forward, but He is not there, And backward, but i cannot perceive Him; When He works on the left hand, I cannot behold Him, When He turns to the right hand, I cannot see Him. But He knows the way that i take; When He has tested me, I shall come forth as gold."
Job 23:8-10

Wow..... Sometime's we keep wondering, where is God? Where is He... But God is always working, just that when He works on the left, we look to the right, when He works on the right, we look to the left. That's why it's so important to pray and pray and pray and read and read and read God's Word, so that we can understand Him and be able to know where He is working in. After that, after the testing... "I shall come forth as gold. "I really want to come forth as gold. YDFF is next friday, i really need to pray more because i know's it's only God's grace and power that can ever help me through this thing. Please increase my capacity :( Please. I know i can do it through You and You only God :)

2009-06-22T07:36:00.000-07:00

Ahhh. :( i just wasted like 1 and a half hours away, feel like such a pig. Was looking through some blogs and fb duhh.. And it made me all sad again ): Wish i could reach out to some of the blogs i read, cos all i can picture is the love that they can feel healing their extreme hurts when Jesus comes into their lives.

Yeah i need to go pray now. These are just one of those times when you don't feel like praying yeah. But i know i have to so i'm going to go and spend some time with God because i'm starting to look through the world's eyes at the stuff ahead and it's really overwhelming me. I must remain joyful through any situation because my joy's not of this world :) keep smiling!!

"The truly painful goodbyes are the ones that are never said and never explained.
From hq's tumblr. How true. Ahhhh i feel so sad for some people out there :-( Which reminds me. Can someone explain to me what's with the tumblr and all the posting of those... nice pictures and classic words. Is it like... hand-in-hand or.. ?

Ah looks like i'm going to be completely regretting wasting this time. Anlynn Tehhhz and Yx just called. Spastics i thought it was JAMIE haha omg ~ Sorry girlies tmrw is stay home and i study day! My throat is really itchy. Hope i don't suffocate from my phlegm again. GONNA PRAY. GONNA PRAY. :( Help me God!!!! Help me to make the right choice, Your choice. :(

(:

It's time for a new beginning (:

1 Corinthians 1:10 (New International Version)Divisions in the Church 10I appeal to you, brothers, in the name of our Lord JesusChrist, that all of you agree with one another so that there may be no divisionsamong you and that you may be perfectly united in mind and thought.

1 Corinthians 1:10 (New International Version)

Divisions in the Church

1 Corinthians 1:10 (New International Version)
Divisions in the Church
¹⁰I appeal to you, brothers, in the name of our Lord Jesus
Christ, that all of you agree with one another so that there may be no divisions
among you and that you may be perfectly united in mind and thought.